a 'work' site; infection with _the_ teaching urge; could be, by graceful texts of P.D. Ouspensky; it happens when people _are_ but also when they are _not_ e.g. bloggers, writers, teachers etc., i.e. & so on down the scale. Symptoms stronger if such had the privilege of enjoying erudition of Gurdjieff, or had their understanding nourished by Nicoll's Commentaries' unmistakable feel. Maybe during childhood. Maybe some are to experience the symptom, _yet_... time is relative.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Buddha, popularly The Awakened One. (Blind Alley Wall, then leaving behind ascetic 'schools'.) Enlightenment mostly connected with Aim vs. popular representations like nirvana or golden middle path. Approximate popular 'truths' of little use. Personal Aim. Hiob. Work interpretation of the end of story. "You can get quite different kind (extent) out of the machine." Admonition "know yourself", esoteric conception of machine more complex than popular conception of entire man. Next, pictorial representations: huge powerful realities beyond personality and beyond body, probably source of later aura-drawings and the like. Largely unsuspected power and capacity of the emotional centre. The chain of effects of Buddha's 'prayer' for each and every would-be individual. Need for 'system' on second line analogous to need for Aim on first line. Hiob's prayer for his 'friends' (at that time bunch of nauseatix blockheads). Sacred, holy, originally equals objective, magical. In Christianity emphasis on strength and duration, in Buddhism on harmony and purity of feeling. Fundamental unity of different 'schools'. Seemingly different categories really on the same level. Reality of higher levels.

Questions, like, what is analogous on the third line; or maybe, how far can one expect to go mechanically asking stupid questions? Or, what do you think we are doing here, having good time together? Did you think think self-remembering was a course in higher algebra? May I ask why these ``impossibly responsible' serious faces? What is the difference between schock and conscious schock? Tales totally disrupted like this, give reader no rest, evade ordinary memory.

New ideas. Centers not circles on the blackboard but rather living (yeah rather alive, baby!) beings. Idea of conscious bond between centres and the body. Suffering of the emotional centre in slow-motion environment. Wills its position. Need for sleep as necessary consequence. Mutual agreement between centers. Higher centers myth or reality. "God" meant highest possible real idea man could get to. Need to break from "Lord, Lord" alias "development, development". Find out how to enable the emotional centre to do. Jesus' practical instruction, two commandments of love to ensure results. "As yourself" easy to understand, "above all" not too difficult either, but for us people, religious or not, "God" a problem. No problem if one thinks about it as much as it takes. One of the clues sameness of the two commandments. Forgive, forgive. What do you really want? Keep your demands and attitudes, habitual responses etc. or make some real progress on the Way? If must ask yourself - well I don't say you must, do I - then ask yourself this question.

Idea of refinement of mind.

Possible additional practices. Be on the lookout for beings that are higher (greater, more capable) than yourself. Even if only somebody who has at least learned to do something well. This is literally to beg for some real schock! Not bees who can make honey or trees&hills which are much higher physically. Like they went fishing but on the other side of the ropy some whaley... But something that really strikes you with terror of annihilation and with holy zeal of emulation and brings you closer to God.