more on nuts&bolts of the teaching

(All that stuff about non-considering seems to me to be about not being internally affected by what people think (about you; about what is, after all, not their business etc.); at least if you can get near to that it must mean a big accomplishment. No intensification of effort alone, it seems, is sufficient to tweak it all up to the required degree, though. Change in the framework of ideas themselves is necessary. Ideas about what people know, and about what people are.)

The thesis that I, it seems, began to develop here, almost unwittingly, is that the Gospels are in high degree embodiment of very advanced level of teaching.

Personally, it was all motivated by notion, brought to me, as I believe, by my conscience and consciousness (quite distinct from mere self-picture), by the notion that I am quite ignorant (I think in this connection about one person, Ignorant, from Bunyan's Pilgrim) and, despite all endevour, simply stated, stupid, in short, a fool. Even more than that, I knew myself positively guilty of what is best described by the verse, I don't know the exact wording: hast thou seen a man who thinks he is wise? There's more hope for a fool than for him.

Later it popped up that that was indeed the centre-of-gravity of the whole business (in case you will had been just gotten jumped on the chair of thine again, Watson: of the matter), and that it was indeed the stone which breakes everything that it falls on, and the rock that will beware the house that's built on it, in, say, the storm.

Now the word that you will find in literature just beside the 'truth' is appearance, and phenomenon, and the like. And in the same breath it will be added something like, things are not what they appear to be. Special case of it would be that people are not what they appear to be. May have wolf's garment, but be a sheep. May be a wolf, but in sheep's clothes.

Then there's this approach, or method, that by certain authors that (that's my bet) most readers here know virtually nothing about, which we find so interesting and which says of itself that it is psychological, using this expression, it seems, in a very special and at the same time widened and deepend meaning. Following this method, we do not anymore ask primarily, what is truth, but certainly, how can the truth come about?

It further says that it comes about by the desire to know, and it speaks of things that may most probably hinder such desired development. Personally, I think that the terror that I felt, like, what, am I going to live and to die a FOOL? is one form that the said desire may take. In any case, to die like a dog seemed a preffered way to such, that's why I use 'terror' to describe it.

Concerning the above, we are given an advice to transform impressions as they come of themselves and it is said that self-remembering does it. Like most everybody else, I also did jump and said: how is this self-remembering? Where is it? How can I get to it? Gimme this magic pill! Later it showed up that it was indeed magic, but no more of that (because I am trying hard to gather my thoughts and don't want distractions for the time being.)

Yes, there this guy Jesus comes along. Of him it is said he did actually know a lot of things. (Of course, he could also perform wonderful works, but knowledge alone is appealing enough when you get into the above state.) He didn't need to be told anything because he himself knew what is in people, it is said. He knew of one man there that he will be with him in paradise on the same day. He didn't seem obsessed by proving that he knows, but he did have an interest to show things to people (I know, Father, that you hear even before I speak, but because of people I say...)

Why am I writing this? I mean, I, W.H.? Because I realized some things and am very excited about it, while enjoying royal privilege of perfect piece, rest and balance. In short, I could enjoy my royal privilege of perfect peace&balance, but then I exercised my royal privilege to disturb the mentioned enoying of my said royalty to tell you about it. But to be as honest as I can, I'll tell you the whole truth, how it really was. It was that I was enjoying this royal peace like a stream of perpetual and increasing knowledge, quite aware that such is the form in which usual, typical luciferic temptation appears, could appear, I must say, only if I allowed myself to combine the royal status with the usual stupidity of mine. So, I was on guard, as it were. Then my royal wish to tell you about it disturbed said peace and balance, and I excercised my royalties to maintain that balance. In short, went to my computer, which is almost in the next room of my royal station, and am now writing about it so my joy may be perfect, as John said, and Jung, I guess, added that perfect quite possibly also signifies: complete. I describe it as disturbance because some idiot might easily stand up and say, eh, Wh, bragging as usual, and I exercised my royal privilege to take that risk.

And what is it that I found out? I found out that Jesus, the sacrificial sheep, the meek and blameless idiot, and a speaker of blasphemy and proclaimer of the lunacy of the cross, and so on, was really a priest of the order of Doesn't Matter, and a World Conqueror as far as knowledge&experience and ability was concerned, and a King, fully exercising his royalties which in the Kingdom of his, where everybody is a King anyway, primarily mean to indulge in deep tranquility which only wisdom can give, thereby granting such King mastery over himself.

That means, if I may guess a little, that everything was knowingly enacted on the scenes, and that the whole drama, real drama, was just what His royal appetites longed to be faced with, the right challenge for him. Why did he did it? I can only speculate here, but I think he was moved with the royal wish of his to tell others about it and possibly help enfolding of the kingdom in them. He would have gladly lead them on the way, but when others 'saw' that what he is leading them to is everything but bliss, he was left alone. I say 'saw' because it seems to me that their own perception must have played a trick on them.

I could now stop but one thing seems curious to me because it is the same in the Gospels and in my own observation. In fact, in the Gospels it is much more developed than what I myself got to know. I said to know, without quotation marks, because it seems to me that It is even so. I remember some instances in my life when I said to some: I know you better than you know yourself. Later I grew terribly asshamed of my 'wisdom', and with reason. But now I have got to know what some people's 'master' commands them to do. Their 'master', their 'god', whom they possibly love, tells them to kill, and they kill daily. That's why the Gospels say that those who will kill them will think that they serve God. I couldn't identify the god they serve YET, "yet" indicating that I have some desire to do so, but the Gospels are much more advanced. They say clearly, for example, that by their fruits ye shall know them. And for a fruit to grow, you might HAVE TO wait a little, you know, a must without a caveat. Jesus said directly something like, I know you, you are murderers and liars, and now he says something mysterious. Your father is devil, and satan, he says. The father of all lies, he says. This, Watson, is a veritable mistery to unravel. Even God the Absolute seems comparably easy to solve, compared to that. Just look at something to be afraid of, I mean, somebody who was not afraid of all the contempt and death the archterror, be afraid of those who murder your soul, not your body.

In this connection I remember how I was always hating people who were 'smart'. Until once I did will have been caught myself, playing it smart against somebody who did nothing further than looking at me, and in a very warm way, I shall say, and I was busy with my own smartness and I didn't even fucking see what was right before me. I say fucking, Watson, because unpleasant it was, indeed it was, Watson. The 'smart' guy was me.

this is a true story.

there was a tree.

the tree has been borne fruit.

when the fruit reach the ground, twenty more trees sprung up, each bigger and more teeming with life and with richer fruit than the first.

strange things happened. but trees grew on.

on higher teaching - further tries

my words will remain, even when this earth and everything will be gone; things like this. Of course not actual written or spoken words are meant because they do not last THAT long.

he on whom this stone falls is gonna go to pieces. Characteristic of higher teaching too. When will it happen is not said, but it will happen. Now, it's not a literal stone, this is obvious. Something about incomparable power of higher class of ideas (Holy Spirit, if I may speculate.)

But this is just by the way.

Will not be forgiven. Of course, it might be, and it better be, but when you shit over the son of man all too often and all too much, it is because you hate the ideas themselves. Just speculating. No one belonging to a school can play a role which opposes the school.

Now to ordinay man everything foreign is a threat anyway. That's why it's no use talking to them. These 'teachings' are 'given' to religious leaders, and to state slaves. And lo and behold, when they eat them, their faces are merry, they are taught to pull faces that way every time they go a-murdering. State people are not so merry, at least not sincerely. They know too well that they are doomed if they go on daily in murder-approving, murder-practicing manner, yet they do it because it is their very job, their very wages depend on it. It will require a lot of hands-washing, and they are worried because no hands-washing will actually suffice in such case. Thus, Jesus is milder to Pilate than to anyone else. (In case you were asking if it is possible to know virtually everything about the methods of the state without practising them - the answer is yes.)

Next, we got the mob. This, simply, people. But, people something healthy, while mob always people plus newspapers, politics, 'culture', some indoctrination, some resentment, economic or matter of 'honor' or 'justice', or nationalism.

But let's take a look at religious authorities. Clearly, these are the initiators and executors of the murder(s) themselves, ok, they might urgently need the state sometimes. "He said he was God," that was his sin. And this is certainly outrageous and unheard blasphemy. I see the outlines of the problem along the following. That we are gods is obvious and nothing unusual, it's a most common and truistic truth that one can think of. Certainly nothing surprising. That esotericism exists because people in general do not know it is plain. That people for some curious reason go MAD if they are told this is apparent, at least to me. That they must be educated in this stage by stage, in intelligent way, and as a consequence of their own seeking and in accord with their own demand, is clear. (That some years ago I thought just the other way round does not change the matter. From 'terribly stupid' to 'moderately stupid' is a line of natural progression of things, and a non-reversible one.) Jesus' teaching was practical, and he certainly didn't come to announce the stupidity he was accused of. That's why he doesn't answer with 'I did say' or 'I didn't say it'.

It is possible to convince oneself that Steiner was not a murderer. The methods are outlined in previous posts. Just the same, Hubbard, he was not a murderer. Spalding, no murderer here. Eckhart, not a murderer. Even the worst of 'em all, notorious Greatbeastly Evilest Man Of England, didn't kill many peole, did he. G., N., O., not murderers, except that G. promised to 'kill' brunette titillations. Which leads to inescapable conclusion about organizatorial dynamics, my dear Watson, which also, as you remember, Krishnamurti alluded to in the familiar devil&truth anecdote. Inclination to truthful, careful and detailed research, these are the first fruits of Science, my dear Watson.

I really have been asking myself for YEARS what in the world makes them so angry. And why do they pull their faces so polite and merry when they are. But maybe I really SHOULDN'T try to understand everything, just like a program you are given and now use without going through its internal build, without figuring out every detail. All in all, that's what it boils down to: when you get connected to certain ideas, you begin to be hated. ALL the instances of these haters (I hope you are not saying: oh, I see, now you identify yourself with Jesus... But in case you do, I say once again that I AM INTERESTED in Jesus' ideas because I have noticed that also today's intellectual and theological world thinks it very strange that Jesus had any ideas... ), and I have seen many instances of them, tries to impress you with how smart they are and how powerful they are.

Some people DID, perhaps and probably involuntarily, made a lasting impression upon my astonished and thankful observation, to begin with. I would not call them 'haters', though. Bad for the above category, I must say, bad, as they are sure to fail with their desired result, and that is to force me to recognize them as big and true initiates. Crazy, eh? Who am I to... let's just drop it. Dead alley of thinking, will not lead anywhere. Maybe it is the other way round and they must be 'stupid in higher sense' to even engage in such 'evil' stupidities, neglecting what IS necessary.

Here are the results of my observations, which I do not at least understand. If you begin to study the Bible to intimately get to know Jesus' ideas you will fare as if you were Jesus himself. I admit it is crazy. Who am I to...?! Drop it, drop it. Crazy or not, this is the result of my observations.

Good! For it is getting brighter and I can already see that his fate must have been a joyous one. That he was a simple martyr who taught, among other impracticalities and utopias, to be stupid and engage in cultivating 'moral' and 'humble' character (particularly when faced with 'stronger' and 'more influential' people, eh?), is, after all, rather simple LIE, no matter how wide spread. He made himself God and he died because of the church of those days, but lo, he was God indeed and today's church is recognizing this and has put him on a pedestal. (Thank God he is dead.) For the state, he does not even exist, nor does he matter much, if at all. This is the strangest, the most incongruent story I have ever heard, Watson, what do you think? Nothing fits together. Maybe there's further clue in the book. Be it how it will, what we've got here is somebody who does not play the 'game' by seeing through it. And as a doctor it must have rather will had been gotten dropped to thoust hearded ears how 'games' effectively stop development in early years, shan't thou sayesth?