Try to observe one form of distaste of life in yourself. The cause is undirected imagination, where we lie passive to our imagination and bathe ourselves in it. Find one example of being unable to appreciate what you have. The cause is being something being laid down (probably early in life) in rolls by imagination that causes you to expect in a way that does not correspond with what you get. Cure is Work-thought that one's Being attracts one's life and that therefore it's no good blaming life.

A quote from Nicoll. Not much commentary - ha, commentary on commentary (on another commentary of commentary perhaps?) - needed, just some rereading over some months.

Changing theory into practice. It seems to be, mildly speaking, difficult to attain. Everything is wrong within oneself. One imagines one must be all wrong inside. But it is rather a sign that ideas that one gets to know are relatively new. Something one could not come upon aided by one's own power. Then the moment comes (mind that, it does come), when changing theory into practice is not at all difficult. This feeling may withdraw in a second and in the beginning it really does vanish quickly. Then again there is so much theory, so many books yet to read, so many programs for one's life conflicting with each other, and the body is tired, and the head is drained, and No. 1. enemy rears its ugly head and hisses "I'll never do it, sigh", and various everyday regular&irregular obligation presses and lurks and is ready to drive one dead, sick or mad. And what is in fact the aim is not yet clear.
This blog is no Bridge Over Troubled Water (just as that previous brainstorming is no serious study of octaves) and it is no teaching either, one must go drink at other sources for good strong building material (no links: you know best where to seek and it is a law that you will find). What is it then? It is rather heretical conviction that there must be some who have gone before: they must know very well what one cannot yet verify: that one is perfectly able to work it out, no matter what one thinks about it. We must somehow gain that standpoint while not yet standing there. After all, we are not doing it ourselves.
That means, inner stop to fuss&fretting. That means, remember that one cannot lose anything, because one has never got anything of value. One can only lose anger and sadness and depression and feeling of meaninglessness and anxious hurry and wrong valuation. One can only gain ability to discern without long and complicated considerations and to see the value of things for oneself - and that must be real valuation, not like in outer circle where everybody values something else than another.
What does it mean "not to identify with one's own efforts"? Has one ever thought about that? Can one make a big effort and not identify with it? All that POMPE says about it is that effort to self-remember must not be based on expectation of results. Why would one make effort if not for result, whatever the result would be? Something is 'wrong' here.
Well, POMPE says further that effort must be based on insight that one can do it if one tries and if one endeavors sufficiently strongly. Will one try to do it when one sees that that one can do it? That enemy No. 1 for some reason is absent? Of course.
But still, what about result? We introduce another heresy here. It is about that widely spread fable of graduating, or - holy horror of Work student - never graduating. In ordinary school it's no problem to graduate if you know what you got to know, if you have practiced what you had to practice. Graduation is guaranteed. That means, Arjuna, take care of raising state of being and don't mind graduating too much, says Krishna. Why? Because that's the way to not identify with your efforts.
Those who have gone before - do not know about these things? We even know and they don't? Of course they do. If they are clever - and there's no reason to hint their main feature is low IQ, they arrange exams and graduations in such a way that one will not even know about them. I'd personally say "hey, this is an exam" only if I wanted that a person mobilizes all extra effort (including that questionable fret&fuss motor power) they possibly can.
Love your enemy? Not this one. No-one there. It's just a shadow, caused by a wrong standpoint.

do sunday (Day of Days) doing the work -three lines -inseparable from studying, the doctrine or teaching as means for actualizing the door of access for higher influence, schocks (stresses), foundation, higher meanings of 'hospitality', kindness to 'strangers', work school but not way of the world, no nonsense, no new age, no magic etc., no exoteric religion, no theo- antroposophy which worse than black magic, in music do has distinct resting feel, home feel, it's absolute origin; do as direction; like "here thou shalt start and here thou shalt return"

re monday remembering, reminding yourself, religion, recurrence, relativity, Revelation (the ending of the Bible), repetition=refining, reprocessing, building of routine, remedy, (sphere=cosmos), solid foundation=rock, sacred character of the Work, irregularities as means of preserving & communicating knowledge, repentance, reaction to events, alchemical reaction, retort, reaction vs. action (initiative), problem of representation of knowledge, being present (at home), living in the presence of the Work, oral teaching, schools of repetition in Egypt means for keeping flame alive, curved line as restriction, the Ray, revolution, rotation, rhythm of resting and action, reserved place=temple, pure, clean

mi tuesday the middle between extremes = balance, balancing by opposites, descending by ascending, expansion by shrinking, taking by giving, memory, misery = our place in the ray, earth as pain-pin? factory, the miraculous standing out of the rest, mystery, knowledge as means of transformation of being, metanoia (change of mind), earth=pulverized rock, possibility for growth; minimizing the representation=economy of expression, meeting as foundational action of the members of the group, means for staying practical, minimizing, making less as means for staying useful, lines meeting in point, planes meeting along line..., contacting, coinciding, dimensions, not mixing different scales, separating mine from yours

breathing

fa wednesday faith, fantasy (imagination), discerning false and real (personality vs. essence), fate as the law of essence, Gurdjieff Foundation = group in general, planets (cooperation, focus), food diagram, fire, under retort, friction, warmth, danger of failure, of fall, facing(confronting)-self-observation, forces, effort, fireplace symbol of home, pharaoh, fight against False Personality, phases of proceseses; when you hear fa it sounds "differently", it's something "new"

sol thursday aim, Absolutes, cosmoses, solemnity of the Work, healing, (quality of) source of energy of the group - energy question in general, vibes, solution: liquid necessary, literature as source, holy character of the Work as the Whole. In music, sol (with si and perhaps re) tends towards do, creating maximum tension right before the end of given piece/phrase

la friday law (3,7), different number of laws, law of: accident, cause and effect, fate, will, straight line represents free moving along in both directions of as well as universal validity of the law (rays), flashes of RealI, light, lux, lantern, lateral octave, lattice (aspect, part), music (harmony of the spheres), dynamics, study of lying, laying the foundation, laziness not existing in reality, in fact something unnatural, uncritical self-observation, no real organ or centre really existing for False Personality to function, in last analysis it is fictious altogether, unnecessary talking, scale, relativity, common language as prerequisite for understanding, study of the system as learning such language
  
si saturday system, time, relativity, studying of work ideas, objective art, six, conscious influence stands central, well, it's no longer mi, symbols (enneagram, 1 to 6, digits: 1 to 10), science as polar opposite of religion, sin as missing the mark, the significant, seeing the essential, separation, vision, simplicity sign of understanding, sympathy(affinity), "let the old self sink" if want to follow the grail, sieve - filtering of the material, discarding unusable or non-fitting parts, by discerning or destruction, teaching as the "great sieve" (the Voice of Silence), of the separation, synthesis, synergy, circle (group as circle, closing, opening of circle, symbol of eternity), one cycle, special place=temple, special knowledge and personal instruction of the teaching, sealing hermetically, separation, statics, death kiss of God, sleep, stop exercise, homesickness, maximizing effects, saturation, over-abundance, genesis

first conscious schock, almost destroying Egypt

do exodus, ordering it all into an organic structure if we want something practical

gathering the material
ordering it (very big problem)
using what is built

which requires

(1) envisioning everything at the same time, be present everywhere, looking at everything together
(2) fleshing sequence out of it, by bringing it to focus one by one, separately

but in reality this is an illusion. What is needed is

(1) lifting one's eyes to the hills whence help comes (quite an act, and continuous to that)
(2) let God fix the rest, being conscious that everything happens mechanically, real development consisting ONLY in growth of one's willingness to cooperate

We have to look primarily for change of approach, change of method. No new method, no new results. And the old result is heap of disjointed, unigested facts and no unification. The main obstacle to proposed new method is fear. It sounds so heretical that we can be convinced we will be crucified in all the ways pious Christians have devised through the centuries as justification for envy and suspicion as God-given human essence, plus we will become neither saint nor Jesus because of it. But that is really all there is to it, the only obstacle. Face it and you are done. If it is God's will, let them do it. And God is simply, for our limited consciousness, what can enable development. What hinders it is the devil.

But this is not method, you will say. This is simply capitulation.

Precisely. We agree.

Let us ask you one thing, though. What will you say if you see that it works?
Let us ask you another thing. Do you realize that the mob and religious authority is ALWAYS shouting "crucify him"? Consult some biographical material on the people whose pictures and figures are in your schoolbooks and in the streets of your town. All those memorials to those great men are set up by the same force who killed them. We once revised heap of scrap from ancient great or maybe not so great personality to use those rare pieces of it all that perhaps could be used and further developed, by the way, in our opinion the only homage this personality would appreciate, if at all, if they would be still alive that is. Instantly, the mob reacted with hanging out their portrait, investigating their biography and paying them 'respect'. Gigantic campaign was raised to divert attention from those pieces we presented. So, do YOU want to be part of the mob or not?
Let us put another question personally to you. Do you realize that when you work certain things will become particularly clear to your mind? For example, what strength you must have if the mass beast is so afraid of you? Do you realize that when you deny that you are worth less than others or more than others consistently you, maybe by immunity against certain flatteries and threats alone, represent danger? It is totally imaginary, non-existent danger but you still represent it.
Do you realize that it is big difference if one person puts off Tom and Jerry and takes Ouspensky in hand or if ten persons do it? Do you realize that same force that fills Amazon with "here you can buy all the books of the Fourth Way" with an aside "bringing us enormous cash" works, MUST, as far as we know, very cunningly work AGAINST people actually getting on with the ideas of the Work? Only one gesture is required on the third line, and it is exposing oneself with all integrity there remains to all attacks and distortions of the "mass storage controllers", to use an expression from computer world. Only one sort of abstinence, abstinence from saying "here is me, please look at me and do the same", which is the easiest abstinence there is because you know that the other can do it far better or their way can be altogether different. It can be done because and only because you are not doing it. It is done by far bigger Powers and not by you. It is tremendous success which can never be yours, though, we must say, it reaches further than millions and fame of this or that renown actor and further than that of the top executives of biggest networks. It is not about heroism of rebelling individuums in war against general community, it is about transforming the community because individuum IS the community. Think globally, act locally is simply ugly in comparison. Every program put together by man is nothing against it. Against what? Against third line of Work.

Put simply, the main bulk of the work for humanity is not necessarily done by those who, considered in terms of space, position and riches, have means. We would probably be totally astonished if we saw the real picture of real contribution, seeing only, up to the time being, that the work HAS been done and IS being done.

Initiation, says ANMOTU, is connection to new ideas, to new circles of ideas. These ideas, it says further, can easily be explosive, they are arsenals of sheer power. We sincerely hope you can see why.

Enemy is simply someone who hasn't access to the same idea you have access to. This is ok so because it would damage him. Observe also how otherwise incomprehensible "love your enemy" regains its right very naturally in this context.

(Well, think in this connection once about your morning newspaper. We are not against reading newspapers, we read them almost regularly ourselves, we are just suggesting little inquiry about your feelings about the manner you are being 'initiated' by them, about force they develop and about where YOU are being led by their paid writers and their 'mirrored' contents. Yet after we became little clearer about these questions ourselves, we must admit that our way of reading them noticeably changed.)

To be able to solve problems. To be able to answer the question. That would be to do. That would be to heal. Mathematician develops transformation (as the central idea) to actually link these two immensely powerful ideas, using the underlying fact that they ARE already potentially linked. Psychologically, we are interested in the force that can bring about transformation. Our starting point is clear. We have used all kind of means to bring about the desired transformation that would heal us and the result was nothing. We have seen that usual methods, usual approach leads nowhere. (Only then we can speak of higher teaching with some right. Otherwise it is only teaching. At the same time it is clear that higher teaching can be the same teaching we have always 'known' but only as teaching. How could dead teaching transform a living being?)

The interesting thing (interesting because it occuppies all our attention in the astonishing moment that we begin to grasp something of it – ) is that if our problem is real, and our problem is real, it must be lawfully (lawfully: in this case: obviously, evidently, at least to some degree) connected with its solution. In other words, our salvation is guaranteed, so to speak. Is there problem when we see the solution? No, not anymore! Was it an illusion? No! What was it? We hate to write it, it is so simple that it could easily appeal to formatory mind: it was part of the solution. This undeniable foundation is called "faith", and faith, in this sense, is rightly called knowledge.

Theology. Church and monastery and the 'believing' crowd have become disgrace to theology. Just look how high and beautiful the idea behind a word consisting of two such all-including ideas must be in reality, originally. One angle from which look at the word could be as follows. You know there are four kinds of thinking or four levels of operation of the human machine. Irrational, logical, psychological and esoteric. To aim at esoteric thinking is the same as to say that you aim at God. You have the oxygen of your logical thinking which you hold so precious, mainly because it had to be wrestled from the irrationality that governs your being. But in comparison to higher level it is pretty much worthless, even an obstacle. Now the carbon of esoteric teaching can act on the oxygen through such 'theologic' direction of the being and transform it to psychologic thinking, the next level.

Thus optimism is poison, trick, feeble imitation of real faith. There's no place for dark tricks in the way of light. Freely use analogies from optics to illustrate this point to yourself.

People in ISOTM were given task to place the law of octaves in the centre of their minds for some time, to think of it and apply it to everythig, to connect everything with it and to it. There could be reason in our trying to do the same for some time, just as they. Though "for some time" sounds like an ugly trick to us. Like: swim as far into the ocean as you can for as long as you can – for some time. You will never return to the shore again.

easy (doable, dominating, yet double, dork, dough, donkey, dog, BuDDha, dormant, door, doctor, document, daughter, orthodox, toast, taste? ?body)
less easy (readoable, record, remember, religion, thousand re-'s, rent, rex, rebel, reckless robbery?, render, remember, revel(ation), remedy, relative)
not easy (mildly irritating, ah, that's me, the micro me, mix, mini-, mimicry mister, mind, mile, migration, migraine, medicine, mediocre, middle, midpoint, smell?)
(outright irritating)
difficult (fairly difficult, already different in fact; FAlse? fat? father? fateful? farther away? phobia? fear? fax? fable, folktale?, find, foundation, fan(tasy), fancy)
very difficult (though soluble; quite different, so very far away; solar, sold(ier?), soul, so late- soft? sulky, sombre, sorrowful long soliloquy, son, salt, sole, absolute, insolent, sound)
possible (latently soluble, so laze maybe even later, laser, so large- galaxy? ladder, definitely lacking, lamb, laughter, land, lame(nt), _{schlank lassie, Larry!##"#&$%$!! the lad that screwed up everything} lagrange, laplace, lark, lag, lash(f), lantern, lullaby, lucifer)
hardly possible (symbiotic, symbolic, sick, sinister classification? simply huge- see: Mississipi, sea; surely missing; spirit?, sir, sister, synonym, sin, basic?, _{cyber cindy,} six, sympathy, science, self?, sight, side, significant, insipid?, sink, sibling, sissyfuzz)
(impossible, outright unbelievable)
easy (doable)

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..... where is U?

sol is called dominant, do is called tonic, (whew, what change, what for?), fa is subdominant, plus three parallels, and si is named leading, why? cause it leads to next do? Whata mess. One thing is certain, dominus must have to do something with lord, we fancy, and it's elementary, basic fact that sol, the octave midpoint, symbolizes - relates to - the Absolute II. Inquiry- joke- -signature.

From the four corners of the Earth
the Lord stands
and smiles.-

It - or something like it - is from one of those blogs who were set free (to set free - way of denoting peculiar act that rock singers promise their rivals will receive in full if they look too closely at the wrong sweetie). It's about fact that when you feel full of shit, unable to think, unable to concentrate, and you say, by Jove, I'm full of shit, in mental, emotional and motive centre, and the instinctive reports: "Capt'n, the ship is full of shit.", and I'm full of resentment and righteous indignation etc. and self-will and pride and vanity and juvenile chibby-peeby-let-us-all-be-little-wheasles-class and you say to yourself, how long is this going to last, and: I've been keeping this meaningless Self.Remembering method though the object itself has been instantiated and deinstantiated so many times that it cannot be counted and that the object itself is unrecognizable and everything is vast nice pitch-black mess and now not one single method is working anymore and Fatal Error will have to be admitted and blue screen faced---- and more such quibbby-mibbby---

And this quibbly-giddly-medley lasts for days and weeks and months, in fact, it seems, from the begginning of times---

As one person said once, just go on with it all (with it all: with what person concerned was thinking it pertained to the Work in broadest meaning of the word). (When one could still remember and think clearly that is.)

Question: why did this person said that and why is it said again and again? Will such an advice not make you into STONE, like that famous female person from Genesis? Is it about being daredevil hero full of bravery and every virtuous disposition, who, bleeding from 1234 wounds and exhausted to death, still manages to deliver the fatal blow to one of the nine heads of the one of the 12.345 dragons surrounding him in the encounter?

Answer: Why? That is clear! Because around, and behind, and above, and in that ribbly diggy wheeggy another plane is, another dimension is, another clarity is, another reason is, another different force is: it will "come" when you do not expect, that is, "you will 'make contact'", or, it will "manifest", (never mind, you or me cannot explain it, that's why those "") if you "go on" - try to keep the octave straight - try to help keeping the octave straight. However you please! These words we know are not exactly helpful in these formulations! Damn words! Even they: traitors! Sadists! Don't trust them! Don't count on them! Et tu Brute! Is: brutus! The: brutus! Every one in class will now be little or big brutus! Which brute would you like to be? Clarissa? Good, divorce. Benjamin? Is, very good. We will have good material to arrange them in chains and make sentences. Who will be another helpful brute? Andrew? Mirror? Very fragile brute if jelaous queen confronts you and asks: thou brother brute, tell me all the truthe, don't to tell refute, if we be the most gorgeous brute, nicer than Snowhite mute? Ok, Andrew will be mirror. Hank! Flash? Ok, Hank wants to be flash. Chrissy? Arrange. Good, Chrissy! We need more helpful brutes. Who wants to help! Bobby, thank you. You will be THE brute. Cindy wants to be flash too. Ok, we'll have two flashes. But half of the class won't be brutes. Brutes, you will assemble on this side, who hasn't got the name yet chooose one please, don't forget verbs! and on the other, he he, know what? On the other side go the secrets. What the secrets think or say is top secret! You never know. They just might change their mind in an instant. They may be silent or make long speeches uninvited or leave the class or whatever, nobody knows, not even they themselves. Let the show begin! Bobby, come here. The first sentence starts with THE. Now let's see what happens if as the next is invited to step forth-- the secret named, what is your name, secret? Massacre! Secret Massacre, would you step next to THE as the next word? Yes! Secret massacre aggrees! We have now The massacre... Intereesting! Class, we got to take care that our party doesn't change into some bloody feast! It is getting dangerous! But we have many peaceful, kind, helpful brutes to help us in this challenge and we would also like to say our prayers to the mysterious secrets here that they respond to this dangerous challenge reasonably and be merciful with us. Let's go on... ... The Massacre Is Tired... Ok, slight change. We need one secret to volunteer as letter S for plurals... And one brute for ED to make past tense. If ED stands to the irregular they turn it into past tense too. Hey, and we still don't know what those secrets will do! Oh my. This is too uncertain. Where is my magic protective coat? And my armour? And me? We will be secret brute, something in-between. I'm certain word, known to me now but not to you, and I'm the last who will reveal itself. Just go on, and on the end we will see how this word fits in. Secret Larry, assume your secret name and command further procedure please! You can ask me for help if needed. Ok?

Make ready.
Think of the invisible.
What is going on in the not known, not felt, not sensed spaces?
Something is going on.
Something is going on there, yes.
Here somethin's wron-- must somehow gone totally off rails, tellya
Count on nothing.
Count on nobody.
Hey, not so content! Do you care at all?
Shut up, past master.
Angels are hurrying busily along the corridors of the big universal corporation.
Every single of them happy, immortal and clear like crystal.
What are they carrying in their folders?
What's going on in their heads?
Why do we think about them?
And why would they care about us?
Sitting here, as we are, completely dead.
Imagine an empty book.
They are rare.
Seek for one precious copy under the name of "notebook" and you will find.
Imagine something to write with, an ink pen? definitely some dear black&gold solemn tool, no everyday stuff.
What traces would you leave on those virgin pages? (Some people answer this one at once.)
Nothing? Come on, let's say you have nothing else to do. Let's say it's an empty guestbook, left somewhere. Many people scratch in such usually.
The book will be ashes tommorow anyway.
Or be thrown into water. (This is to take shyness away from some people.) Now write!
No? Then write to some person, this will make it. "We hope you will find this letterbook useful and amusing. Such&such."
Look at what you have just written. Do you like it? (Most people, over 53% of them, recent research has proved, don't.) No problem, imagine new empty book and start over.
Then—and now for something that is no joke—take the book to the magician.
Say this is me this is my life this is my book. What to do with it?
If you can hear what the magician's saying you are master.
If you can do it...
On the level concerned, not on the next. (This is to take disappointment away from some people.)
Is the magician saying: "Wait, is there something we don't understand..."?
Probably. In fact, this has been the case with over 83% of female population and 98% of males in the last 1500 years; in which period magicians alone could baste and clobber nations of Europe, including maald-boarded islands and uxorial shores of Northern Atlantic. Ah, space and climate and government and intravexinoxious agreement of the nations of Asia! Such was the general sentiment communicated in the higher book of fate of de Charlemagne—not so much in Italy—and excellent English governments. It would had devastated the plains of Spain, Franks, and trade, were not the Visigoths in position to plant there the constitution enabling life spirit and spirit man of the late Roman enterpreneur descendants. And demesne, demesne, never forget demesne! Thus we are gradually led to see that the same laws govern manifestations everywhere.