I asked (1) if something good existed and (2) if it could possibly be found. Then I realized that (3) these two questions are rather good start in themselves. I also said to myself that I have to write something on December 29th no matter what—regardless of the presence of so called inspiration.

Good. Why? Because it makes me think. Now much further than that it didn't go. Next good thing in order to set thinking free is to leave strict definitions and wondering whether thought can be represented in words and how—and so on and so forth—entirely out.

Next, this blog claims to be 'work' site. Good. Very good. This will keep thinking busy with the issue and not let it roam dissolutely in false freedom.

Not much choice does one have but to ask what does the Work say about it. Fragments say that it is very difficult question. It says that it is dependent on aim. Aim is further connected with personal motivation for coming here. Some examples are given, like being Christian, helping people, knowing the future, stopping wars, acquiring self-mastery. The latter, acquiring control over oneself, G. said, is the best formulation of an aim.

Now this is just so much quoting and no thought. Still, there's very remarkable spot in the New Model where it says that man finds what he looks for. If man looks for good he will find it because there is something good in everything. In fact, this spot is in the remarkable chapter which connects the Gospels and the 'school' idea—remarkable if one considers that the Gospels don't mention 'school', at least not as central idea, and neither does theology. Now school is state, and Holy Writ is church, school is science and the rest, and Holy Writ is religion. No, says O., Gospels are 'school' book. Now this immedietely takes Gospels out of the usual garbage and does not spare the school, doing the same with it. Remarkable, but not exactly advantage for the reader who will be probably made to begin from scratch. Necessary, though, because nobody doubts that the Gospels and the school are definitely worth to be redeemed from centuries of uselesness and abuse.

Christ is the headmaster. The year's plan is Lord's Prayer. Teachers are few and pupils are many. Holy Spirit is the good in everything. Strangely enough, the distinction is made between headmaster and his task. You can calumniate headmaster and somehow get away with it but you pay dearly if you go against the school and its mission. Let somebody say "headmaster is stinky inane retard" but don't let anybody say "what he teaches or stands for is rubbish". That would be denying the good that is there and so cut the person concerned from it. (The first slander is of course not something good but still much 'better' than the second.)

Quite apart from that high environment, this is something interesting. There is certain person but what that person says is something different from that person. It can e.g. damage that person. Now what makes Christ what he is is also what comes out of his mouth. What makes pupil pupil is his ears which can hear.

"What is this year's balance? My comrades in the school-work: this year was total failure. It is my responsibility and mainly your fault. Yes, you screwed it up, almost entirely, and next year you better find good reasons why my precious time should be wasted on you. One thing you keep in mind as workers in education, let nobody come to me whinning how that boy is lazy or how that girl lacks curiosity or how that class just wouldn't learn. Something is wrong with you yourself in such cases. The tales about how today's youth lacks natural inclination to explore and study you may go whisper to somebody else's ears, certainly not mine and those of your own learned colleagues. Precious authority that you are! Do you want to inspire them with police methods to respect you and beat the joy of learning into them with punishments or are you here to teach them fear of God and encourage them to question you and help one another? Out of my Father's school you have made bumblebee fashion commerce sewing store and money exhange office!

By the way, lest some of you should think it being top secret: the lowest preparatory pupil in this institution has by now figured out everything that was said plus thing or two in addition, subtracted on the other side those visions that only you can behold.

But now the damage's done. We have to face the fact. Tommorow you are personally invited to my office and no one will leave before clear signs will indicate that each one of you has very good understanding of the reasons behind your failure."

The head of the school is certainly not hindered in telling an unpleasant truth by fear of not appearing sufficiently generous or broad-minded before people.