a 'work' site; infection with _the_ teaching urge; could be, by graceful texts of P.D. Ouspensky; it happens when people _are_ but also when they are _not_ e.g. bloggers, writers, teachers etc., i.e. & so on down the scale. Symptoms stronger if such had the privilege of enjoying erudition of Gurdjieff, or had their understanding nourished by Nicoll's Commentaries' unmistakable feel. Maybe during childhood. Maybe some are to experience the symptom, _yet_... time is relative.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Fourth Way School
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
new entry
Saturday, December 08, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
more on forgiving
Why do we who are without exception immersed in spiritual world, in spirituality, not see the fact? And yet it is so, we are. Everything around us and in us is and expression of love.
A way, a quick route there is forgiving. Forgive everybody, I mean everybody, and make it as complete and absolute as it gets. Be a machine of forgiving. (Don't just read this, do it. Do not make a feeble attempt, a try; d-o i-t. Become an engine of forgiving. Just practice.)
You will see that advanced stages of this practice merge, as it were, with other things, like withdrawing demands, compassion, love, understanding, will. It is a practice, and therefore highly individual, and there is not much to explain, although it doesn't hurt to know it will bring a sense of liberation, a redeeming element, with it. It is diving deeper and deeper and discovering these things on your own.
[I heard the above advice before, of course, but somehow I have managed to leave it untouched and I only scratched the surface, finding that with some persons I am not offended and there is seemingly nothing to forgive, and that with others it is simply impossible to follow the advice of forgving (for me, of course ... perhaps others can make it?). Now I think that many people really only scratch the surface like I did, and rare others discover this highway to heaven.]
As one dives deeper into pain, fear, suffering, they dissolve, one's movement is freed from impediments, one begins to swim more freely. Oh, spiritual advice shouted to one's ears, for some strange reason chosen to be ignored repeatedly in the past. Discovery that one is utterly dense is surely on its way too ...
Friday, September 28, 2007
Suddenly, after hanging in a library and reading what people have to say on death and Bible and Living God and so on, a resolution has awakened within me.
I no longer totter through the day. I remember the purpose now.
(This must have to do with religion. There were once means to bring people to more resolute state. Something of such order and concentration which ordinary daily living couldn't provide.)
Before, I desired to know. Now, my desire is more to be.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
friends
So much friends. So much greetings to them. I'd like to write something for them so they may rejoice.
Remember, everybody I meet is a man first.
Monday, July 23, 2007
difficult theme
Thursday, July 19, 2007
some very important things
I had a complete post done, composed in my head. By the time I get to the computer today it is gone. Doesn't matter, if it is important, and I remember it was important, it will come back, perhaps in even better form.
But it is also important to do what I can, even if most of it is seemingly forgotten.
Something about the system, and some very peculiar things relating to the system, and it was connected to the previous post. About forgiving which means that our perception was faulty and the our debtor's debt didn't even exist the way we thought. (I only remember my vanity very clearly. I was reaffirming for about three times "Yes, W.H. speaks about elementary things again".)
Oh yes, now I remember more.
It was about the gang of four and how they are different expressions of, different takes of one unity, the Lord. Different angles of seeing, different approaches to, the same thing. And when there is mentioned total Unity one cannot but begin to think of God. Which by definition belongs to the domain of religion. And faith means, - it was important what faith means but now I just forget it, together with other things. Something about philosophy and truth too was there.
It was important and very alive. This is all hopelessly fragmented and withered, certainly not ripe for publishing. Doesn't matter, if it was really important it will come back.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
conscious schock
Sunday, June 24, 2007
if it's green it's (probably) biology
- Philosophy (ideas). It is when you think.
- Science (reality, world). It is when you observe and think why you do see what you see. Also techniques for observing and body of knowledge gathered in this way. Put a little plutonium in a frog, measure the time it takes to kill it, make a hypothesis, repeat it and now you can make a prediction, find out where that accursed double agent Worobyanin is hiding right now, the rest you know - that sort of thing as well.
- Art (definitions speak about humans expressing themselves, trying to stimulate (?) and convey messages)
- Religion (set of beliefs and modes of life)
- Art is difficult to define, and religion even more. Particularly definitions of art don't seem necessary to me and searching for religion at wikipedia, for instance, probably make clear to everybody that people don't agree as to what religion is quite so well as in case of science and philosophy.
- Thus philosophy, according to me, W.H., is essential if one wants to avoid errors when thinking and science is the expression of the basic urge to 'get' the reality right and not distorted. Art seems to be an urge to perfect and master something and seems to have alot to do with the beautiful. It is not limited to painting alone, obviously, but means the peak performance of a human being in any discipline. Also creations of nature are known to produce impressions of 'beauty' in some and could therefore be called 'art' of some kind. And man, a thinking being, is obviously not separated from the world but rather an integral part of it, thus knowledge of man presuposes knowledge of the world, hence need for science.
- Those three seem to be universally accepted (although the meaning of these words needs be 'redefined' in our heads thoroughly before talking about these categories can make same Work sense) but in case of religion there we meet passionate deniers and passionate advocates.
- One way out of difficulty may be to listen carefully to so called adversaries, because it is found that every time an atheist wretch spits out one of their set, rigid attitudes that are among the most wearied from frequent use, it is followed by self-justifying in the form, "understand me well, I'm not against ethics and humanity and goodnes, but I hate these lies and rigid, ridculous traditions and abuse and greed, and I certainly don't think I know everything etc. etc. etc. etc. etc.". Fine, that is why these so-called adversaries can tell us alot about what religion is, in any case more than so-called adherents.
- But there is another difficulty. There is basically only one music and only one chemistry and only one logic (I know, I know - listen, perhaps you leave this blog NOW and go back to your narrow specialized usless school of formal godelknowswhat), I said, only one logic, BUT: there are hinduists, budhists, christians and so on, and they are ready to cut each other's throats. Well, I don't NOT know what to DO with THIS difficulty, so what is left to me is to try to write some more lines before they cut mine. And first thing I'll write is that IMO, there is probably only one religion even if it does not appear so at the moment.
- Let's see if the gang of four isn't in reality a gang of only one. There should be some common ground as this system tells us that all four are stemming from one central something which could be called, perhaps surprisingly, psychology. (It is stressed that man is not complete and that it is about man as it could be or once will be, and thus that something may not be understood as some sort of science which studies the reality of sick or, perhaps, of exemplary 'top' 'samples' as if man was a stone that a geologist takes in hand.)
- We won't even need definitions. (That was the lucky part. And now for the difficult part.) For a start, we'll just need a thorough destruction of our unfortunate partitions of our broken concept pool - which we are probably used to call 'knowledge' - and getting under real influence of the Work, or the system, or psychology, or Christianity - indeed, we won't even need a fixed name. And to get under the influence one obviously has to begin to regard the notorious foursome as parts of a unity and try to get a better grap of this unity by means of them instead of staying with empty 'definitions' of the each of the four.
- THAT, the foregoing, is what I, W.H., mean when I say that, say, the Holy Bible is not a religious (or christian or catholic, God forbid) book. (This is enough to offend so-called believers.) Suppose you too were to suspect it is a part of a system that, in general, has been lost and forgotten, for some reason - wouldn't you begin to value it?! (Statements like this offend so-called atheists - each of them very, very sober and objective and trained and capable, as they are.) That is how it is, try to stick with this non-violent and gentle and gradual Work and, for some curious reason, offended people on all sides get terribly upset.
- I hope you can make it to this point without difficulty? You just wait. You aint seen nothing yet. There are seven thoroughly revised and expanded editions of man and, in general, seven main editions of 'our world'. Things might get tremendously complex very soon. You'll get something more meaningful to get passionate about.
Monday, June 04, 2007
A little exercise in (creative?) imagination
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
"This is the Commander speaking..."
"This is the Commander speaking. It's not addressed to everyone. It's an address to those who have taken up this Work consciously and seriously tried to do something with it. (Time doesn't matter much: it may had happened a few seconds or tens of years ago.) Do you have, hm, how shall I call it, courage to fully trust this Work? Listen. Nothing, nobody can harm you, in whatever way, howsowever. It can not get close to you even. There's absolutely no reason for fear, you see. "
That was the minimum, I'd say. (Certainly I got to non-identify, i.e. no matter who am I and how enlightened and all that, I remember to identify with Him. There's certain mystery to it, anyway, I think; and if there would be need for precision, one couldn't describe it more accurately than Him speaking through me, although He is not 'me' and 'me' is not Him - and not only speaking that is. And I got to do all the rest that I've learned. Not-do, better, for doing begins by not-doing etc.) There's certainly more. Commander must have meant sinking into deep silence and utter collectedness, and I don't remember that he ever forbade anybody to rejoice and adore and wonder in joy at the great wonderful Works that Commander performs. . . since - when?
You see, at the moments like this when envy and blood-thirst and miserable, primitive, ugly provocation begins to seethe around you and cows begin to moo, so to speak, you can be at rest. You have a right, speaking legally, to remain untouched by it. You have the right to not be negative, so goes the phrase. And there's more. It's become plain to me, why by the gradual action of this Work I have had to take ever greater leave from primitive violent methods that people use, to acquire new habits, so to speak, new attitudes. It's not exactly "control" of violence, as people often think, that is involved. It's inner control -and I'm afraid that means there is no violence in you because there is, well, something else. It's not warfare such as is engaged in by those who do not see, materially, psychologically, and, if my ears and eyes do not deceive me, even 'spiritually'. It's spiritual warfare. Big difference! How can you engage in spiritual warfare? Well, by not being violent. By trumpetting Kurukshetra, Kurukshetra all the time. "This is surely not possible?" Good question, and necessary one. It would be a dissapointment if it were not asked, for it proves that the 'questioner' sees where the problem is. Now, it is possible. How? By a special kind of effort (which, properly, finally includes all the Work, et cetera. . . but that would mean somewhat a lot of things if the time of few seconds that Commander mentions is all you've got. . .). By 'remembering' what the Commander says - 'remembering': depth, frequency etc. . . Depth refers to, I think, to the part of the microcosm (that you are) that 'remembers', centers included and so on. Little part, small depth. Large part, big depth!
Practically, from what Commander said it follows that all that is needed is a conscious decision. And, of course, as in the foregoing examples, take note please, not just 'decision', what is mentioned is actually, conscious decision.
Next, there are prayers mentioned in the Bible. Thy Kingdom come. . . They might be well intended as a means of remembering as said above. . . Enough! Let those who have ears hear, stop. (Reader, we are done for the time being. I enjoyed it and I would have it last, but I cannot, should not go on writing indefinitely.)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
specialization, humility
I don't think specialists can achieve anything in this Work. It's necessary to have special knowledge to perform well within a profession in life, to do well your job in life, that's right. Next, particular lines of Work have their 'special details', needless to say. A Buddhist in Asia necessarily views this Work from another 'angle' than we do. Apart from that, specialization is another word for lopsidedness, and hence, an obstruction. What you need is a general knowledge of what life is, how people live, what they think, what they need, what they want, what they strive to achieve. There is a whole spectrum, for there are cultural, geographical, economical, racial, biological (gender) differences. (And it's not a question whether your place in the spectrum is a special place from where you are enabled to freely evaluate and judge what you see. But it's possible to determine your place to some extent and win some freedom from being determined by it in your outlook.) The spectrum also concerns differences between human beings, internal differences.
These differences concern valuation, effort, faith, possesion of magnetic centre, eventual contact with 'schools' and much more, in short: being. Also knowledge, of course. After some thinking, they are not less important than life differences. Now, to see the whole spectrum of the entities in this universe is more difficult, isn't it? For, there might be entities that belong 'lower' than you - inferiors. Then those close to you - equals. These both categories you can see. The trouble lies mainly in those who are 'higher' than you - superiors. How could you 'see' those?
Let's jump to a seemingly unrelated subject. Didn't you observe how underestimated simple logical thinking is in this world? Didn't you observe how extremely useful logical thinking is? How come? Does it not tell us (does it not enable us to calculate precisely, so to speak) that the main problem at entering this Work can be self-overestimation? In other words, thinking that we already posses that what we still have to attain? "But I'm full of self-love. Therefore I certainly know what is to love my Self." What do we have to attain? We've got to either find in ourselves or build in ourselves that which pertains to higher levels of the spectrum, don't we? "Of course, I'm conscious of that." How will we see something that we don't see in ourselves? "I don't know. How strange. Otherwise I know everything." Why do we see lower levels? Because they have something we know in ourselves as well.
Now, isn't this humility? Is it not so, that humility is not so much a quality of character, something that one has, than it is absence, being-free-of of some serious obstacles? Do not judge may well mean Do not underestimate. Logical thinking, for example. Then psychological or even esoteric thinking, about which we do not know that much yet. Then higher beings that are our only chance to pull us from the level we currently reside on. Here, does it all strike certain cords in us that could be called: heeroosmulka-groovnian (approx. meaning: similar-to-what-religion-teaches)? Is logical thinking not great help in seeing that it's extremely improbable that we are at the extreme upper edge of the universal scale?
We often want to cooperate with and communicate with lower beings. We often love and like them. Owner/dog. Parent/child. Wouldn't it be logical to suppose that we are not the highest crown of the Universe? Wouldn't it be logical to suppose that higher beings love us and want to literally serve us in the process? Would it be wise to underestimate simple parent/child that nature and life put before our eyes as an image and analogy of inner realities? Would that bring new light to the opening line of theLord's Prayer? (No, if one remembers that long ago there were gentlemen who seriously confessed that they don't know much about DO and SI notes of second cosmic octave. How seriously they were taken is another question. By people who understood it oh all so well. Knowledge is joy! The gentlemen must have alluded to certain Dominic they all knew and his pepperoni affairs with certain Mrs. S., but in a way that only those knowleadgable among us understood.)
What are rules and regulations and exercises and esoteric knowledge&instruction other than practices that help us find (or build up, as an alternative) in ourselves that which in more bountiful measure exists in entities higher up the spectrum? (Oh and I forget to mention book reading. Not exactly am I confident that beings higer up the inner scale have read more books as a rule, but some of them might.)
Do not these simple considerations so far, if taken seriously
1) show us that knowledge and means to develop oneself really abound around us? (B influences) 2) provide a basis from which one can 'take off' on one's own, without danger of being misguided?
What I understand by humility is basically what a child feels towards its higher counterparts. They take it for granted that those are simply higher and that's it. I don't see a trace of humiliation in it. . . what whispers: "beware, humiliation, humiliation" is inner pride anyway, the inner devil. (I'm going to leave out 'less perfect' masters/parents now, although they open interesting domain.) And what self-will suggests is to get angry because some strange 'freedom' that to child would be fatal is denied us. Run over the street without looking around. Play with bombs. Something like that. I want my mom NOW! when mom is doing her shift ten miles away. But where another big problem lies is that analogy here is not perfect. An atheist, a materialist, rationalist, a believer in blind fate or impersonal deity, simply denies that there is something higher. Of which we are much like children. All those types that one can see outwardly represent some serious blindness in us. Then idolatry would be a monkey child hugging his plastic, stone-dead mother desperately, an orphan holding its teddy bear tightly.
It all gets complicated. I can't think on well from here. (It's typical, by the way. A sign that we move on... out of accustomed landscape.) I'll just try to try to determine where 3) C influences come in in today's scheme. They come in when you can 'see' them. (Not that they have to come as if they were not there all the time.) And you won't see them if you don't see C-influence-in-yourself. And to see/find/build it in yourself is what this Work, the ABC of Christianity, is about.
We'll leave whether you have to build a soul or do you already have it, for some other time. Suffice it to say that probably those who 'built' it are probably convinced that they didn't build anything, that the soul was always there... I wouldn't wonder if it appeared to logical thinking as something paradoxical. I don't discern psychological method well, yet it's a kind of higher paradox, logical paradox, so to speak, that points rather to psychological than to irrational thinking. (Speaking of that, I am firmly convinced that those who actually attain salvation, liberation from sin, actually think there was never any such strange thing that people call sin.)
Now do me a favor and don't ask that stupid question WITWA again. Otherwise I'll begin to call you Witwa. What is this Work about? Witwa, would you like to have a glass of milk?
There are probably a thousand good sides to prayer, ways to use it, to profit from it, aims that it is used for. Higher intent with Jesus' Prayer probably lies in the meaning, not in the words. That is, it is probably a portrayal of establishing conscious contact, an image in words. So, what is this cup for? It is for me. Let it not pass by, but that I may drink it. I cannot drink it in self-will as I am used to do other things. Therefore Thy will happen.
Well, quite a mystery (mystery=too big for logical thinking). I feel inclined to repeat the advice. Don't underestimate logical thinking, what active reasoning can do within you. Practically it's the gate to psychological thinking. Don't underestimate psychological thinking either - but that's already an understatement. For it must be the royal gate to the divine and all those things people say but rarely understand.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
a new idea
A new idea does not come from what is called 'brain', or 'thinking'. I don't want to give rise to imagination, but just to have one good practical example, think of what Bowman says in Odissey 2010, like I don't know what it is going to be, but I know something wonderful is going to happen.
(And it is not an 'idea' at all, not in the sense we usually use this word. It's probably some other centre or other division or positive emotion or higher emotional centre. And the above is an example of it - whatever it is - in operation. Like if you said, now God help me, and you really knew God is going to help.)
The problem you have before yourself in this Work is too big for logical method. Try using it and it will become defective method. Psychological, sometimes even esoteric method is required. And that is something 'you' cannot 'switch on' yourself. Like, but it will be switched on anyway.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
email excerpts - re-formed
... It's true [this system] looks like house that was never quite built, worse, like in the beginning of making plans for it. One thing I begin to understand well is that people who wrote about the system had not much time. By this I don't mean they were like busy managers and yuppies and others who have no time to look around them. But there was obviously an urge to go about their business in a very direct and efficient manner, a strong awareness that they may attain nothing at all if they use customary approaches, that their chances are small, not at all proportional to their effort.
Their seeking of special methods, of the 'schools' and so on, of the contact with the esoteric circle, their valuation of 'spedial knowledge' (which, by the bye, explains why ordinary effort can have no effect) has its ground in all that. It has nothing to do with the well-known forms of Inner Special Circle of Inner Awareness of the Golden Key and all the rest of we-are-chosen miseries of this or that kind - nothing to do with pride and vanity which they sought to overcome.
Well I agree oh that point. But allow me to say that it would be good if you could find a way to climb up, out of your simplistic dumbness a little. I'm going to consciously (yeah it's different from 'intentionally') humble myself and pretend that I'm going to debate and speculate about it all. Think, for example, how this "system" you are talking about and obviously have difficulty grasping as a whole, could be very alive and dancing and complex and joyous thing. Think how there exists, in the literature, vast, colourful range of consciously (ahem, yes, or less consciously) built Images and Picturings of the same. Imagine how, while you think that you are interested in the the system, in reality the system may be interested in you. Think what a total 'metanoia', what a schock of a conscious meeting it could mean at certain point. Don't the Inspired Authors testify at large: What is a man that You look down upon him? (Some book:some-verse)? And they they find it is too wonderful to praise and and and not-exectly-the-word, tongue-in-cheek they bring themselves to the point of uttering something. (Why should they? In a certain sense, there's no need for it. The reaction is understandable but may not be exactly what is desired. Of course, to achieve that, one has to at least anticipate it all. Just a hint.) Why? BECAUSE THERE WERE LADIES AT THE BASE. No no. Don't mix that in. That's External Considering theme we are going to expatiate on, I hope, on Some Other Suitable Occasion.
Your Bellowing Uncle
Scrampleding
Friday, March 09, 2007
More Questions And Answers
Q. I was told to find without seeking. This drives me crazy, tellya.
A. Who told you?
Q. In the group...
A. Ah, in the group.
Q. I'm sure it is a group connected with Gnosis, Holy Spirit and the Work. There are many friends, brotherhood, you know. We were told-
A. I see. Well, brotherhood and friendship is a mighty fine thing. Even a group can be a mighty fine thing, er... should be, well, theoretically of course, that is, at least I hope so. T'seems to me that only Love can save you now, friend. Depart in piece, God bless your soul and protect you from muslims, from christians, and from christian civilization. God protect you from christian technology and christian use of it. Or better, from no matter who misuses it.
I am told that congregation of sheep was celebrating Declaration of Independence from the Old Yoke of Bondage yesterday. I am told that today these sheep loads their rifles to shoot even their neighbour's dog, should such by mistake try to piss in vicinity of their private Trespassers William sign. I am told they are rapidly mutating into pigs since 1948. I am told that Worldwide Sheep Organization and other organizations are feverishly seeking their own identity. Well I can be told everything, can't I. I am told that because of the trees they do not see the forest, and I'm inclined to believe it. And I add that because of the forest they are not able to see the trees. And I add that they do not see much, in general... And I ask myself an old question: Who controls the would-be-in-controls?
Q. Jesus! What you have in mind must be a very lonely ride!
A. Saying Jesus without knowing what it means is not exactly a rare thing today... But back to your question. One finds what one looks for. Where one's heart is one's treasure is also.
Q. Thank you for this captivating interview and a friendly advice.
A. Well, thank YOU, [person's name]! I wouldn't call this an interview and, regrettably, there was not much room for a friendly advice either. (Hopefully the situation is different in your 'group'.) But without your questions event this here weren't come to pass. Will had been wouldn't passed. Argh, whatever. We sincerely hope that they will be able to deduce the meaning despite obstacles that Lord Himself, perhaps, has laid in our way to understanding. Perhaps to prevent us to come to Him? Just joking. I mean, thanks to your questions only God could again use me as the choisest of his chosen weapons, provided I, W.H., am evermore framed by this Work into a, so to speak, willing instrument to that end, in the original Nicean sense of pivotal totality, that is, totally overriding and in parts replacing dodecalogic sequence as predicted by the first 4th century and earlier fathers, in pristine beauty. Pristine beauty rulez! (You can not be TOO enthusiastic about pristine beauty, in case you thought of the possibility. You CAN be not enthusiastic enough, though. So regarding this there's no question, no doubt, no problem. For pristine beauty, I use this term in post-Nicean council sense, and this Work that we are after as if we wanted to catch it, must somehow be connected, I reckon. Must be inseparably joined, I tell myself.)
Sunday, January 21, 2007
This Work Not About Being Good
It is said that this Work is not about being good but about making connection.
This Work is about developing and building. Obviously this invites questions like What? or Building What? and other expressions from beings that have just landed on wrong site. Such beings must be referred to the sources and to other healthy and needed ground-establishing practices. For you must stand somewhere to reach deeper into this Work. Begin by building and practicing at the ground level. Continue formation by consolidating the same ground level concepts and practices. (Those looking for a hint can get it in the references section.[1]) Until you are very good at it. I am inclined to suspect, anyway, that so-called advanced topics are nothing but the same 'basic' topics understood more deeply, i.e. understood at unusual depth.
Now person doing all this will find out something: the built thing crushes to bits, scoffing both at the projest and the 'architect' of the project. On closer inspection, this is because the ground has crushed. Why is all that? Because of the second force of course. In other words, man cannot do. In other words, because personality lives under the law of accident. And so on. One could expatiate on it particulary spaciously if language of octaves were to be used. (And if one had some noteworthy command of this area, which very often is not the case, even with higly enlightened and awakened beings like, for example, W.H.). And all that, thus superficially mentioned, is not an answer, really.
So this Work IS about being good as well, no doubt about that. Only the purpose of the above saying is to tell us something else. That something called 'connection' is not more important than being good, it is rather the very ground on which to build - while 'to be good' (e.g. to be able to do something well) with nothing beyond that is insufficient. Food diagrams and hydrogen tables have more answers on this. But then a complete answer, as usual, would involve all of the system. This system is about being good at making vertico-horizontal connection, not about being no good. Its application is to bring man under another influence, to anoint man, as it were, with a coat of hermetic sealing.
Generally one has to build on 'truth', i.e. using higher hydrogens than those that make for unsuccessful courses of development. Once that is more or less clear, it does make sense to ask What type of questions. Psychological method is not just studying lies and nothing further. In this system, men (men and women, that is, not some indefinite specks of infra-emotion - which will pass on higher knowledge as successfully as a muddy brook after rain reflects sunlight in its 'crystalline', 'spotless' 'depths') study the 'truth', to begin with, and that includes studying (alas, by trying mostly, for the most of us) of the impediments, in the man himself, to begin with. That's why popular, mass fashion self-aggrandizement which commonly says "I" while thinking "you" or "them" quickly loses contact with the system. (Without this type of ill-breeding even noticing the fact.) Yes, it's not primarily about Jim or Jon, it's about valuation and aim and so on. This Work doesn't need all those 'good people' who excel in... not caring much, I guess. (And they don't need the Work, nor do they seek it. After all, what they are good at is severing, sabotaging connection. Alas, broad is the path of destruction. If, for example, the quantity of information that a person has got were important there would be thousands genuine schools overcrowded by overintellignet, overinformed students. While, in reality, even somebody like O. spent half of a lifetime in search.) Please read the following. This Work needs a person that values the idea of becoming good, and values it because, above all, they want to make connection. Reciprocally, such person will need the Work, and they will seek it, for they have seen that better, so far little known methods are necessary. Thank you. The Work, I say, not W.H. You are welcome. (By direct instruction, the path of trying can be significantly shortened, and even replaced by something much more effective, but one must have, alas, at least "ears to hear" for that.)
[1] Crumpleton, Jeremy: Why To Read The Holy Bible Is The Best Advice That Can Be Given
For those who can't get it let it suffice to say that Jeremy basically tells the reader to read the Bible seven times (as a sort of very big, lifetime project). I verified it using my usual rigorous suite of tests, and lo and behold, it is really most brilliant idea. (It must be, for otherwise I wouldn't have a need to reference poor Jeremy's book - you are allowed to say: Jeremy's poor book - on this site. I shouldn't be to cynical, though, for if I think of some distasteful commercials surfacing lately, it's clear immediately that Jeremy's book is wrong target. Also the weapon is wrong. As to the real target, brigades of fully equipped men from Fahrenheit 451 would probably do much good. Even a muslim terrorist would be a gift from heaven for such 'authors'. Hey, this is a brilliant idea. After hundreds of years, once again a brave muslim cavalrist accomplishing the feat would legitimatelly go to muslim heaven. Legitimately at least as far as I, W.H., am concerned.)
Alright, I have failed again to write a decent post [again - Ed.], but every decent writer should fail with such tasks. Because the system is very big, needless to say. Good. Failed to write about the system, it remains to express my opinion, without fail. For IMO, the system appears big because it is connected to - is a 'mask' for - something much bigger. Something that has power to freeze this Earth in a second - or melt it by excessive heat - or, as in the days of Eliah, to influence atmospheric water currents in order to affect their atmospheric upper layers accumulation and axio-radial intercontinental circular exchange and thousand of those things humans ordinarily have no idea about. Something that has power to send some 'authors' gifts after which they will wish they would have been sent muslim terrorists. Something that seemingly tolerates 'injustice' (often in fact quite fascist and murderous and genocidal 'injustice') and 'waits'. Waits like you and me when we don't know what to do. When we don't know what to do but are quite certain that we don't want to make things worse than they already are.
Friday, December 01, 2006
simple realizations
We're inclined to underestimate simple realizations, not seeing it may take many years to actually get some or even one. My example: I was 'well acquainted' with the system. I thought I was. I didn't yet realize I am not well acquainted with it at all. And then I had a simple realization.
Namely, people deeper into it all used ten or twenty words I didn't understand at all, I merely knew them. To make it worse, they used them all the time. Next, I began to realize that they used a hundred or few hundred words I knew from before but with meanings I couldn't even imagine. I made a simple calculation... twenty... that makes four hundred pairs... hundred... that makes ten thousand pairs. It is quite enough for a parallel world I couldn't penetrate, yep, quite a world that, so far, I never could had stumbled upon. (Horror-of-the-situation has different forms. But this one was healing, I guess.)
Together with it went the realization that there was no dictionary in the world to help me learn the new meanings. Because the main bulk of the new words and the new manings referred to, for me, non-existent experiences and levels of being, those that the initiated (no sarcasm intended) knew. Knew just as well as I didn't know.
What could I do? Nothing much, except push on with what I was onto already, deciding to carefully jot down every new word, idea, experience, feeling, realization, et cetera. Even more carefully then up to that moment.
