a 'work' site; infection with _the_ teaching urge; could be, by graceful texts of P.D. Ouspensky; it happens when people _are_ but also when they are _not_ e.g. bloggers, writers, teachers etc., i.e. & so on down the scale. Symptoms stronger if such had the privilege of enjoying erudition of Gurdjieff, or had their understanding nourished by Nicoll's Commentaries' unmistakable feel. Maybe during childhood. Maybe some are to experience the symptom, _yet_... time is relative.

Monday, February 21, 2005

advanced teaching

advanced teaching, definition. What you get at by doing 'base' teaching as given, not demanding more than base (not very fortunate adjective) teaching. In that sense advanced teaching is everything there is and is equal to base teaching and vice versa. Yeah, it does not make much sense (only) defining it. Practically, could be defined by level (just) above you, and is thus different for different persons & situations. Researchers report that they always find it connected to will, and doing, and the like.

advanced teaching, uses. If you have faith, i.e. you believe in the messenger of the Work, or, most important, in what comes out of yourself, through yourself in moments that are typically different than 'ordinary' moments if you believe it. Why is faith, belief, so often talked about? Precisely from opposite reasons than in church. It is stressed because higher teaching is here, yet it LACKS normally present element of compulsion, of disregarding your own discernment/decision. Believe it or not. That's it. THAT why they who DO believe are lucky, for they CAN release potential that is hidden in the higher teaching. If you recognize presence of the higher teaching you are blessed. If you make your aim to remember it often, you multiply your blessing.

advanced teaching, example. There is an Order of Misery. When you Awaken, you won't want to participate in it any longer. You won't tolerate misery in its thousand forms in yourself. That is what those mysterious passages about Negative Emotion in Pompe were saying. There is more to it but I forget. Something about: to awaken from misery = to awaken from sleep. Something about: the key to it is will, and doing.

At first we study many aspects of the teaching. Then, the teaching becomes discernible in greater cohesion and synthesis and pithyfulness. That, then, would be theoretical definition of 'advanced teaching', so called.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Why did they do it?

No doubt one of the things the Sphinx is waiting for, ready to wait another eternity, is that people who approach it do approach it from the standpoint that its builders were cleverer than we are, "cleverer" not in the ordinary cunning sense of the word, but in (Man #8/chair)-ratio sense, etc. , cleverer in the full Work meaning of the word. Once this view of the matter is accepted and to some extent understood, some conclusions are inescapable.

As to the container of the idea itself, the builders chose aesthetically perfect geometry, endowed with manifold mathematical beauty (golden means and so on) which alone could be much expatiated upon. That's why even the cross-section alone produces rather agreeable impression: it can be shown easily that if the pyramid is goldmean-ish as to its surface then the cross-section is goldmean-ish in its sides too. Then, outer side triangles ('walls') will also be goldmean-ish, only in another sense, in their heights.

One point worth mentioning is certainly that if we think the floor square made up of 4 equal (square) tiles, taking tile side (half base side) as a unit, equations (mostly routine pyhtagorean squaring of triangles) take the simplest form, and the height of the pyramid (straight ray), side height, and length of pyramid's main skew edge (there are four of them main rays of course) are found to correspond to points 3,6,and 9 of the enneagram. Also, whole-number solution 84 (tile dim.), 107 (height), 136 (side height) and 160 (edge) meet the circle geometry pretty accurately, except the exaggerating 160, which, when applied, would give inclination of the slope 51o54" instead of usually used 51o51". By "circle geometry" I mean for example how 136/84 enters close, 600ppm-close correspondence to them dimensions of the circle with radius equal to height of the pyramid. It is easy to find this information elsewhere if you are interested. Now if you want - in fact you need it if you want to further pursue the inquiry - some feeling of appreciation of these 'facts', you should spend some time with them pictures and numbers and books on elementary mathematics and calculators and special software and pencil and what not.

Note that until now we have only considered shape, and, without getting into business of the dimensions of the building themselves, tried to create tools for eventual understanding of the underlying idea: through the mathematics of the pure shape. But, if we decide to begin with The Great Pyramid with the side of 230m, I forget the decimals, we will find, using quite elementary methods developed and explained in previous posts, that source of light (perhaps incoming ray splitting) at the top would well resonate with the edges, emitting violet light, reaching the ground, creating secondary sources, and resonate with the ground square sides at similar violet emittance while taking blue hue. Triangles would be dark in the middle, only the eight edges of the pyramid would glow in violet/blue light. But, if we somehow would be enabled to perceive an octave higher, somehow crossing the blackout area between violet and red, we would discover that side heights - this is where the inscribed cone is showed on the outside - are, without doubt, red. There is tighter orange cone inside it, yellow one, green and so on towards the vertical middle, where greenly colored ray (perhaps the one which at splitting directly hit the earth) represents pyramidical height itself. (Other, smaller pyramids give other lengths and therefore other colors.)

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It is there to remind us of something. We have become experts in outer clothing, experts of shape and detail. But every symbol, cross, enneagram, pyramid, whatever of this kind, must have been handed on to be connected with idea to burn, as it were, the idea which is not to be forgotten into the mind of the would-be individual. In this Work, perhaps not so obviously, the secret of accessing symbols' meaning is revealed. If symbol has no or wrong or too superficial meaning it is of no use or tragically brings about quite another result than that for which it was designed. Symbols are obviously 'power toys', even for the more adept ones, and the first step towards their unfolding is recognizing that what they mean is primary and not how they look. The very existence of it all means - for those not eternally-stupid - that people are APT TO FORGET and that the higher beings think that this is 1. not necessary; 2. not desirable. 3. Higher being(s) do/did something about it as well.

There is universal symbolics of the four animals, four elements and so on. On the floor, there is sufficient number of 'I's. No Steward/Master/Deputy Steward circle or whatever other circle far away here. Here we are expressly, intentionally shown something fifth. In general, this shape must have to do with the way from Man #4 to Man #5, and relation between man #4 and Man #5. Chambers something connected with Higher Centers. Entire thing in its precision and beauty telling us something about what attitudes when looking at things or doing something are worthy of emulation. About the power of qualitative, psychological approach. About the thing that the big practical principles must be given shortly, simply and gracefully, otherwise they become the limiting factor. Seen as a mountain, it has formidable slope inclination. Must be carefull not to fall.

O. seems to try to laugh out the guys with their almost English inches and royal cubits and astronomical extrapolation of the building right now still travelling highways from Sirius to Orion's double hubblepubble. O. states that he knew to some extent why the whirling dervishes did it but also that it cannot be told. Right. We are lucky he didn't say that it cannot be known.

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Monday, September 20, 2004

Ask Sun if be aware of Mercury's
adoring orbiting where'er along,
and Venus radiating next to Moon,
what is the mystery, is there such,
of Mars' cheeks reddening enquire
if aught but anger causes them and how,
greet Jupiter, perhaps require in wonder
why, when so big, one seems so small & shy,
please, ask, if you prefer, ol' saturnine,
how come so cold&cruel, if it is of use, etc.

But go beyond that, and you will be shown, that, which those who once seen, ask, better never to see at all, you understand.

(some closing powerword here)


"Congregation, rise! Let's have your full attention, please!
No, no! On your knees, ye unworthy! Back to yer kennels, ye dogs! Oh, I'm sorry, that's from another book. Mistakes happen, you know. Let's proceed.

Everybody kneeling? I'm sorry to inform you there we don't have any instance or sample of those who do not understand that this is not the place of self-will but place for those who desire to have will because they know that they don't have it. Ok. We must reflect on this position. Outerly, this means admitting one's unworthiness before what stands upright in front. It has always been a means of expressing that one is unworthy of what one kneels before, and what, perhaps, one does adore or something. But psychologically, the meaning of this posture is a mystery which is not easy to explain. Definitely something to do with consciousness of something. Also, think of this connection of the devil in man's soul who has no name but constantly whispers "I am unworthy, sigh", whence he derives its strength and how much damage must it cause if you allow him to become strong.

Now, congregation, pray! Pray, I say, as if it was a matter of life and death, for it IS a matter of life and death. Pray that those who lead you, those to whom the flock is entrusted, so to speak, ehm, but you must understand this psychologically, just as it was understood psychologically in virtually every what we know as 'school' in more remote times, that those who lead you, I say, that they never fall into temptation or at least that they don't, if they do, fall seriously and deeply and, above all, frequently. And what is temptation, I ask you? Can you give an answer? No, this you cannot, and for a long time, if you permit, you will not be able to give a satisfactory one. Now, listen well. Temptation is a way of giving expression to the following fact. In 'schools' of older days, those assembled in the working place, again, understand this psychologically, those who understood that if they are fed and stuffed with that data which is now popularly called 'news of the day', but, we assure you, 'news of the day' was not a superficial expression AT THAT TIME WHEN IT SAW THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF DAY FOR THE FIRST TIME in the books of that superb exponent of the WORK which we so deeply respect and to which we owe so much, if we are quite honest, those who understood that they must be fed with deeper truth or die spiritually, and those who, by the way, understood and valued lots of other things as well, on which it is unnecessary and, in truth, impossible to expatiate upon now, since such expositions take ALOT of time, those, to shorten the story, who were thus, as I said before, assembled in the working place together, they - what did they do, I ask you? - they prayed: they prayed fervently and from the bottom of their souls and cried, as it were, to the His Holy Infiniteness that their leader would not fall prey to what was technically termed 'joking fit'. You must not suppose that these prayers can be compared to lukewarm oleaginous self-remembering that many of you now practice. Now, those ancient formulas were torn from heart and bone, from every living juice that flew inside their bodies and from every spiritual power that could manifest in and through them. And as the 'school' proceeded in its development and pupils were getting riper and riper you could discern this soul-disposition, the following state of consciousness and, as it is also called, a sincere wish which, if could be translated into words, can be rendered in this way: "By holy ones and the devils, we don't care, by the one who can help in these matters eventually, for goddamns's sake, MAY these our leaders and teachers and masters NOT fall into what is technically termed 'joking fit'." And you must represent to yourself this situation in the following way. As time went on, these prayers were becoming ever more serious and more sincere with many of those assembled there. This was mainly because they gradually got to KNOW what they prayed for. They knew very well what a danger for their development it was if those who lead them and to whom they submitted voluntarily to make circumstances more favourable for gaining real will begin to indulge in joking fits. You, see congregation, this is a peek from the inner workings of those fine psychological communities of past and present that we term 'schools' for lack of a better terminology. And, like those who were thus assembled prayed, so we must pray today. And we know that our prayers will be getting more and more sincerely innerly felt and lived. And I join you in the same prayer also, you may rest assured. Think of that junk, Elvis, or what was his name, how he uncontrollably laughed at the end. Such is instructive for us, but at the same not, I repeat, NOT something to be wished for. Higher energies are termed symbolically wine, maybe spirit from spiritus, indeed volatile like alcohol, and we want to be pleasantly warmed inside and relaxed and enabled for Work, certainly not relinquish all control like some goddamn fuckin drunkards, have you understood ye shitty punks, urgh, sorry.

Stand up now! Introduction is over, God be praised. Want to know why people piss from fear and hiss from hate when they meet you, as with many of you is repeatedly the case, just like repeatedly is happening that this surprises you? Which last, by the way, SHOULDN'T happen. Please, don't take it personally. That would be very undesirable for everybody, you first. The person usually is not guilty of anything whatsoever. Second, don't for goddamn sake imagine you are somthing special or have some extraordinary powers. Such is most probably simply NOT the case. What, then is causing these events? Very simple true answer is that it is because you are unto something REAL. Not necessarily GRAND or HIGH or BEAUTIFUL. If you really are of course only you can tell but don't deceive yourself with some false humility or something. This whole business QUITE outside these categories of humbleness or pride. You are onto it or you are not, and that's it. And in case you are, which only you can tell, you are determinded to get some new knowledge and new understanding and new being even, and NEW means simply something which by NO MEANS you knew until now. Which said knowledge etc. is going to, I'm sorry to say, partly going to become part of you through new experiences. Work is real. That is it.

This is not German ersatz. This is to let your attention solve some part of 'em puzzling uncertainties in case you got 'em, but also to remind us at the beginning of this our new fantastic fabulous work service in our absolutly gorgeous new chapel, thank you for your donations and years of work, brethren, to remind us that the Work is real, that it is esoteric christianity. This reminder, as you have noticed, influences you in two ways, it makes you more serious and sober and it makes you more energetic and joyful, because this is the only practical combination and because nothing else will do.

Let's take a look at what inner christianity has always brought to our attention through the designation "the world". Let us look at the ways of the world, then. Don't see much, but what do we see. We see, by the ways and methods which we were thought, how many individuals complain that their life is, as they say, "difficult". We then see these individuals in the next instant making next psychological movement and it is usually that of comparison. They compare what they take as yourself with the picture that life and world mirrors back at them. They something say something like, why, our life is so difficult, and life of others is not so difficult. Which, as you already guessed, is the root of envy. And, first, envy is a very powerful thing and not to be underestimated. But, secondly, it is not good for you if you wish to Work. These last two statements do, as it were, give the outline of this business. Ever and again miscomprehensions creep into this and it was necessary to paint of this problem before your mental eye in a most distinct and unambiguous way again.

We are primarily looking for means and methods of solving our problems and difficulties and we are told clearly in what way they are only to get aggravated. We are also thought how they are to get better. We are going to give you a short summary of how this can be done, which all of you already know but it never hurts to remind ourselves.

1. got to study the Work teaching & language. This business is accessible to everyone but not so easy thing to do. Those of us who've got some experience have become aware of certain 'trickiness' of this business - perhaps because of the sons of darkness deliberatingly stealing from our insight into real issues here. It is easy if you do it. If you do not do it, it becomes increasingly difficult. Generally, "I will read later" is a way to perdition in this respect. Though, you are your own boss with this, and you will have to be judicious, flexible, intelligent but also consistent.
2. you must not do it because you want to solve your problems or satisfy your greed for this or that etc. but because of genuine love and valuation for the Work, name it how you like. Secondary literature may be of use in this connection, as well as all the what is called maturity that can be gained from life experience. These things have to do with magentic centre also.
3. this last thing is not as difficult as it seems because the Work is very big and so connected with every aspect of general life that it is impossible to not become interested in it, if this is your will. Unfortunately, many people do not will it, and so they stay with their "oh yes, I can, surely I can".
4. it is more like you already have some pieces of gold and now you are going to gather them much more, they lie everywhere. It may also be that there is really alot of garbage mixed with this 'gold' which must now be differentiated, concentrated and separated and sorted out.
5. thus big repository of solid gold is formed. By that, nobody is getting poorer, and contrary to every law of economy, you can say, "we always profit" even if you have just lost everything or are as poor as a church mouse. Now, what is this treasure for? Well, you can now begin to do. If this is the Biblical treasure in heaven I don't know personally, I really don't know. But that such is a treasure where thiefs do not steal (and the robbers do not rob), this of course I know and so do you. I wonder, I wonder, if this is also the place where the murderers do not murder.
6. and so on. We can assume there is more, further stages, and the law of octaves assures us that there are further stages, or, in case of broken octaves, things go downward again
7. it is thus not necessary to expound on every aspect of the universe before we move on, practically I mean, and it is indeed impossible

Let us return to our problem. Life is difficult, an unfortunate 'I' sighs within us. This 'I' wanted to do but this 'I' was stopped, perhaps by what, without explanation, I will name 'malicious operators' which so abound everywhere and particularly where they should better not have abided, to their own detriment, essentially, but also to detriment of this 'I' which problem we now choose to examine more in detail. This 'I' then finds out that life is difficult, and that it is impossible to develop. You can not argue against such an 'I' succesfully as it has certain right to say what it says. Not right in the sense of justice but right that it is to certain extent real. But, one of the titles of those books that have shown the way to oh, so many of us that I now enjoy seeing gathered here - pray, congregation! -, speaks out almost the whole story in the very title, does it not, it says namely possible evolution, and it stresses possible. But you can see clearly that than this 'I' is only right inside certain madness. Because, please do the following exercise. Ask yourself, what worth would this life of ours have if it was not possible to develop?! Can you imagine it? No, of course you can't. Because it is unimaginable, you see. Life projects very strong form of hypnosis regarding these things. I won't go into it, partly because it's too horrible, but in general, what everybody can see is unimaginable, on condition that one cares to think for oneself, is called, please, listen, is called reality in general life. On the other hand, what the Work says is possible is decidedly called impossible in this same reality. Again, I'm not going to work it out. You may find out a thing or two for yourself even with these scarce indications. Now, back to the fact that life is unthinkable without what seems very special possibiity. Every living creature lives from this conscious or subconscious expectation as it were, from certain inner certainty perhaps having to do with the being-impulse of 'hope'. Thus we see half of the solution: this namely 'I' must have generalized, widened, projected certain frustration of this 'I's particular plans onto general impossibility of development. Which, as we have seen, is false even in its general meaning. Can we say something about special Work meaning in this case? Let me hear some of you, my standard of uprightness and my flower of quickened apprehension! Huh? What is the 'trick' regarding development? Right. Correct. NOW WHAT DID JUICY SAY? DID YOU ALL HEAR? Juicy say one has to look for understanding. Right. And you know why? Let us hear some of you... Oh, because this is the most powerful force...don't parrot this shit into my face. Tell us and say what you think. Ok, let's use what he says. Why is this understanding such powerful force, can anyone tell me? And what do you use to snatch your victory from the 'I' that you cannot defeat and you don't want to, of course, you just don't want them to convince you about something that is obvious madness? Plus don't forget, we are discussing this within the frames of the problem set forth just before: how do we trick impossible development so called into a possible one by certain byway 'trick' of understanding. There is a beautiful pale face hiding there. Beautiful pale face with much traces of the son of the darkness right under their deep eyes. I think it belongs to a... hacker. No doubt. Very many reference manuals late into the night, huh, miss hacker? Gives you sense of power, probably, now you can see the difference between an exe and a dll. Extraterrestrial knowledge which mortals cannot access, at least not without super-effort. Now such must be specially humble, others first, and they must hide in the back row. Miss, help us out of this confusion. External considering, you say? Let the thunder and lightning strike me if this is not something I had in mind also, would you believe? I somehow felt you would do it, thank you Paley or what is your name. So congregation, what is Paley saying? She adds a topstone, as it were. Listen what Paley and I have found out: if your life is difficult you have a privilege-without-quotes and you gain a really real opportunity to better understand those whose life is difficult. Thus you always gain. And you always profit. This is it, congregation. Now you can breathe. Because this 'I' and its grounds for infernal despair have gone. Not that you have destroyed this 'I' but you have won with this extraordinary power inherent in the Work and made accessible to you through the complicated and intelligent system of its ideas. And where do you get the ideas? It is torture for me to mention it so many times, but it's got to be done and God gives me the power, I think, in this special case: in books primarily. D'you know that ancient beautiful poem,

Look, great ruins of the ancient temple.
And what do you see in front, i.e. at the gate?
Library! sweet fruit of sweating brow of wise men
of old.

servant of the Work, truly hold, and is a big secret, which, lo I tell you now: throw these babies into water and see if they can swim. If they can, they are born survivors and they can continue education. I have personally tested whole trucks of newborn babes in this simple ingenuous fashion and what survived, survived. Subsequent education was therefore in vast majority of cases to be xpected to continue in ever greater enfoldment of mark rates and end in complete SUCCESS, personal, as well as carieral, sexual, social, cultural, ecological, spiritual, universal and workal, and so it did in hundred percent of cases that were tested and that are still closely inspected by the surprised parents, doctors, statesmen, writers and journalists; yes, journalists themselves, these cases are daily recorded in press of the day if you want to know, and people literally don't have anything better to talk about. I have long hesitated whether I should publish the results of my investigations or

But wait, there is one person which you don't know, Ouspensky he was called. He is a good example of genetically deformed personality. He has a job, a good job, and he says, this all lies, I don't want to do this anymore. And mind you what I say and what proves it: yes, you guessed: he comes from a heterosexual family. His views are backward, racist, girls together, boys together, conservative he was, terribly against new simple advanced units and grammar you know, perfecting of human breed - ideas, terrible, like nazis, and worse. He not interesting more than Stalin but there one exception, there you have an example of man who wants to do the Work and cannot because he is genetically deformed, while Stalin, IMO, not in the Work. O. is tragical figure, of sorts; he is like a man who says, I don't know, but I think, no, actually I'm quite sure that the whole science and mistery of the universe would become clear to our minds and order our lives and lives of plants and angels and all the different spirits of different orders in the great chain of being if we listened to and obeyed what one (voice up, cresc.) Other Person, namely the Pope, said, and it is wonderful in its simplicity: that the wife should be at home. This is it, congregation. I won't go into painstaking details regarding all this. And another miss that has to do the Closing Word for today is excusing herself as he has to do some urgent renovating business in her department, she says. Want to know what is miracle, congregation?! Miracle is that I, W.H., is talking to you

BLURP
And at the sound of my own name the sleep was interrupted and I woke up and I found that I was lying in my bed (I name this thing 'bed' and it really does look quite like 'bed', please, no offense, no identifying, no emotion, CALM DOWN FOR GODDAMN SAKE, C A L M D O W N I S A I D, hush, honey, gee, it's only a stupid movie you see, yes, with symphony in the background and all that, but gee don't get so upset) and the planet was called Earth and it was probably part of the system with one sun and some planets and there were probably some four or five or six continents and three or four oceans and, overall, it was very sad experience. Though, I must say, I felt LESS miserable than by all the standards I know I should have been. Which immediately connected in these morning associations with the strange remark that the Bible is mutilated but LESS so than it could have been expected. Which both, however on different scales, seemed to me to be phenomena of the same kind, of the same sort. And they seemed so in such powerful manner that I felt to exclaim in my soul and swear that everybody, no excuse, who's denying the reality of non-reality so called is shit to me even if such comes with divine status. But I didn't because I was always afraid to swear. You never hear even a curse coming out of my mouth and nowI should swear??? Next I felt strong very persuasive impulse lightning through the individualized parts of my overall oraganization that I will never permit myself to call 'hacker' somebody who has yet to learn to tell a right from a permission and who cannot quite discern between Muturola and moozarella and who has yet to get to know MOV and 128-bit VL bus and all that. And what is floppy disk and what is difference between software and hardware, as with some of these 'hackers' is actually the case. And even when they pass this severe testing I will be very careful if I do regard them as 'hackers'. Oh I forget one who was, as I recall, definitely a hacker, yes he was, and wore double absorption panties just in case he made too strong eye contact with the monitor. Because he then pissed and even shitted involuntarily (or maybe somewhat voluntarily, but how can you tell in such catastrophical cases) and double absorption panty prevented the catastrophe. He still got to call her mummy, I think, to switch off the monitor, which act was now beyond his powers, but the main catastrophe was succesfully prevented. Such, I said to myself, will not be named hackers within my system of ideas. And even if I have deeply in my soul, by means of conscientious, accurate observation, for ever established that the entity definitely deserves the appletation 'hacker' I will use entirely other criteria for determining if the entity in question has a single bit of respect or admiration of mine or whatever.

128-bit VL bus might be actualized like that. You hold the hacker TIGHTLY and say, I have no gold or silver to pay to have your Complete Registers from AX to IP ADDed together into Extended Memory or your BIOS overwritten with repeating nonaligning patterns. But what I have I offer, in 1st clock all your 64 teeth will be outside on the pavement, and in 2nd clock my leg-installed DirectX support will suddenly send all the 64 teeth that mainly populate the hills on the outside of your vagina proxima along same route. This is called 128-bit VL bus or also Str8Way superuser boot and by God, I don't know how it happens, but it CAN happen. The main thing is you don't want to instill fear in him. You just tell him what might happen. The imagination, of course, is triggered by impotent anger, and it is the kind of impotent wrath that positive heroes like to instill into black guys at the end of the films. Positive guys very much enjoy it, that's why such is called positive. You wouldn't believe how many such positive guys I know, I have known in my life. That alone should keep the black guys away.

The idea is, of course, that the imagination becomes more controlled; and if it doesn't want to be controlled, which is often the case, adding some TIC and philosophy, in short, reasoning to it as to reverse the flow of Jordan, and transform of negative emotion. From killing-soul-disposition to a bitter smile and you have won the set.

I think I have found the right tone. Not screaming like a congregation leader, and not writing a Diary of The Daily Shit. Talking quietly to myself, reminding myself of what I want to be reminded, but always speaking with someone who is 'reading' these things. A twist here, a turn there, some quoting without quotes (dangerous shit, this), some quotes where there's no quoting, a contradiction that for some reason is funny, a joke that isn't funny at all. Going back to teacher tone if I don't know how to put it. Here is what happened to me and here is the resulting lesson for you: you handle hackers this way:... (But this was written for those with backups. No backup, sorry...come to wrong place.)

Now that I woke up before the Closing Word could be heard I got to close this thing myself. Congregation, to this day consisting of one person which comes across as strangely dejavued, rise! Lift up your heart to the starry sky! (I would appreciate to be listened to when I speak, but, in this case I really do understand, and I do speak the truth when I say it, that congregation has to speak simultaneously with me and there is no other way.) Look at some object through your window. Do you think that another person in another part of the world seems the same object? Most probably not. But if you lift your eyes towards the night sky? That's another matter. Because many miles around your location every thousandful of persons seems precisely the same objects as you do, you see. It's like a symbol of a little secret, you see.

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Ascending octave suits the Book, it seems... Josh 1:6-8.

DO
Genesis
Exodus
Leviticus
Numbers
RE
Deuteronomy
Joshua
Judges
Ruth
MI
1 Samuel
2 Samuel
1 Kings
2 Kings
1 Chronicles
2 Chronicles
FA
Ezra
Nehemiah
Esther
Job
Psalms
Proverbs
Ecclesiastes
Song of Solomon
Isaiah
SOL
Jeremiah
Lamentation
Ezekiel
Daniel
Hosea
Joel
Amos
Obadiah
Jonah
Micah
Nahum
Habakkuk
Zephaniah
Haggai
Zechariah
LA
Matthew
Mark
Luke
John
Acts
SI
Romans
1 Corinthians
2 Corinthians
Hebrews
Galatians
Ephesians
Philippians
Colossians
1 Thessalonians
2 Thessalonians
1 Timothy
2 Timothy
James
1 Peter
2 Peter
1 John
2 John
3 John
Jude
Revelation
DO

Monday, May 24, 2004

I would dream on occasions of the Great Power descending, seeking out what is lost, sent exactly for that purpose. Often I'd fancy how, in its descent, it influences commited workers and transforms them in Its eyes and hands, how It gives them wings. How It ascends again with Its 'prey'.

That might be one of the things that the falcon-symbol stands for. It might be possible to understand what this bird's unerring vision, spotting helpless mouse, who will not escape, means. What the death-cry of the prey, who is now - or will be so shortly - released from the pain-factory, means. We may have an inkling what a triumph it must be when those birds soar high up again.

Well, that is fishing. That is fishery. That is the story of the nets thrown in the sea and pulled out, full to the point of tearing. That is what all that ploughs and sowing and reaping is about, and that is why the axe is at the root of the tree already.

If you understand these things to some extent you will also know, just to one example, why the cow is never at home. Why she regularly sits on 'satsang's elsewhere, making her husband and children ask involuntarily "but where the hell is she?". Because she finds that her husband is 'spiritually incompetent'. Because she cannot 'spiritually cooperate' with him. But you will also know something that the cow herself doesn't know. You will know that she had been doing a little harmless 'spiritual act' just before things have gottten that far, that is, she did mentally degrade her huband and his spiritual ability, perhaps with some help of a 'friend'-ess or astrologer with which she so frequently discussed the 'problem' that could be discussed elsewhere, nearer its source. Having thus deprived herself of clear sight she now feels that she is not loved. It is all distinctly stated somewhere in Epistles where Paul says something to the effect "let wife respect her husband and let the latter love the former". It seems that Paul knew but too well who comes first in the procedure of "changing the mind". (To Mr. Morality Paul's views appear too harsh though his 'civility' secretly likes them. But Paul did not write for Mr. Morality nor was himself a moralizer. Too many places that reveal somewhat deeper knowledge of life. Thus e.g. "respect" is not something cultural or behavioral but leans more towards intellectual centre as distinct from "love". Not that respect is something non-emotional; on the contrary.)

It will also be clear why the cow and its more than sorry 'social bottom' rejoice whenever they can cave in somebody weaker then them, usually after years of awe-inspiring efforts; or maybe somebody who is more naive or more innocent or more unprotected. Maybe even somebody who is more sin- and guilt-laden than themselves: excellent conscience-proof material for self-justifying. It's clear why they so enjoy their self-made 600 dollars remarks and think them so worthy and witty.

Yes, the falcon wants to work through them too and they must have 'prey', will they or not. They imagine themselves 'co-workers', and they cooperate according to the level of their understanding (which can be much lower than they imagine), and then they inevitably learn from their mistakes. For a cow, for example, laziness is something associated with Instinctive or Moving centre, perhaps with Emotional centre, while real laziness that really brings about a disaster is intellectual. That is the direction where the effort lies regarding cows, according to St. Paul. That is the direction in which the effort lies regarding everybody, according to O. Surprisingly enough, cows know about it.

Now observe what many a cow does with what she repeatedly hears about. (Animals, by the way, especially evolved species, resemble humans, but I use "cow" for human-like beings that resemble animals. And 'cow's bottom' is used to paint beings who do not - yet - resemble anything that we know in the living world.) It's interesting. She says to herself something like: "Mine is the way of the heart. I know my 'head' is evil, that's why I will follow immediate intuitive stirrings of my heart." This would be the new-age type: good, now she can bypass clearing her mental pigsty. (And following immediate stirrings is convenient for turning around as soon as the situation changes.) There is another type - let's name it dr. Spock type - who reacts to the same teaching this way: "I know my 'head' is evil. That's why I must educate my head first." Then she reads the newest research nonsense and bases on it either her household or raising of the children or partnership (lots of latest research bestseller nonsense about managing your clit or managing your partner available out there these days) or business. Good, now she can bypass everything: the book tells her what to do.

You have probably met with these humans resembling trained animals, let's name them cows for the sake of brevity, in one office or another. Yes, of course it's logical, of course it's right, of course it can be done immediately, of course it would enormously simplify matters, of course it could save time, money, human life even, but... this computer program says I may not do it. My boss forbids it. There are rules, you know, rules # 1245 and # 764 and amendments #0564 with severe threats to certain percentages of my salary and I may lose my job even (and I'm the boss after all as far as customers are concerned and have right to my own 'discernment' in the situation).

There are several pages that could be written on the subject and even they could only make up a feeble intro. Yet I have no intention to enlarge upon that: my prey is not the cow. Besides, they have their own butchers.

Only, this is serious matter, for the lows and the heights of our society is ruled by cows, and cow's outcome is always derangement, in one form or another. I myself am product of the cow; yea am myself a cow, infected by the cow, conditioned by the cow. That's why I must come under another influence. My prey is understanding, better, Understanding, the most powerful force that can be created. My prey is development, or better Development. And for this particular post, my prey is second line. That would mean you, the reader. Namely I feel for some time that if poor devils & damned souls like us should meet, our chances to get hold of it would be greatly increased. Is it known to the reader what are the three lines? Did learn to know Self-Justifying or imaginary self-pictures from Self-Observation? Did he try to think in octaves or construct some of them himself? Has assimilated some works that are now available as B-influences? Has some Nicoll, Gurdjieff or Ouspensky under her belt? (That would mean we have learned some words of the common language and therefore have a starting point at least.) Is not confused when he hears Flamel, Tauler, Lewis, Steiner, Blavatsky, dugpa, samsara, arupa, Pol Pot, Sweden? And, first and foremost, is the terror-of-the-situation intensely experienced and cannot be gotten rid of? Got some inkling where is that 'way out'? Can read about that falcon without being dominated by thought, c'mon, this is not practical? (For it is practical, otherwise some high authorities wouldn't be so very, very, very angry when they read 'em posts here.) Does the reader bear the marks of some 'backlashes' on his own body and his own what-not? Has been f...ed and trampled upon by various organizational and non-organizational bottoms of the above sorry you-have-no-idea-how-strong-WE-are type? We-will-chase-you-away type?

Later, maybe, you'll want to read entire libraries but those beginnings should suffice, unless we want to wait for a very long time to come before may begin.

The Great Power knows where the sore spot is. Pure, original Christianity is the expression of this Power, - it is among many other things a practical teaching that irrevocably locates and heals those sore spots in human society - while the Work can bring about enough understanding for the worker to not walk the wide and luxurious road of many possibilities that lead to destruction i.e. to not repeat one of the many mistakes of which one example is given above. The Work brings people together.

Speaking generally, there are many ideas that we have only superficially touched and so we fail to strengthen them in us and live with them and by them day by day. There must be other human types for which this is not so - they have already placed them in the middle or are them as it were and are probably subjectively on levels we can only dream of.

The whole initiative set forth here is in fact resting on one very remarkable fact, namely that it is always possible to work. To some extent, of course. By "always" I do not mean 24 hours in a day, because this is exactly what is not (yet) possible. But there is one thing that is sure, and that is: if I should die tommorow due to some 'accident', amidst my last gasps my mind would be turned towards highest and purest essential central ideas of everything that I would have tried, while living in the body that I inhabit now, to get some grasp of under these awkward - oh, how awkward! - appelations of the Way and the Work. Something that perhaps more vividly is given by Paul's immortal "whether we die or live, we are the Work's". Beg your pardon, Lord's.

That is, by "always" is meant that you can 'do' (' ', for it is in many respects not more than certain inner 'looking' into certain 'direction', sort of 'willingness', valuation - etc., I posted on it elsewhere - ) it, no matter who you are, how you are and in what situation you are. (Though I admit I myself often believe that I cannot. "F..k, now the situation is really screwed up totally.") And one single instance of really 'doing' it convinces you of what J. Livingstone the Seagull or how was that book called says: it works. As you know.

Let's look at it from the point of view of reccurrence. Even if nobody responds - for this is what would ordinarily trouble me personally - would I want to talk with people over the internet or not in my next recurrence? Definately, this settles it. I may be not afraid of life or death or God or the devil, but to think that in this reccurence I had a chance of opening this focus and didn't even try-- Where is my weakness? Where is thy sting? Who cares for results? My weakness. Signed My weakness.

About the terror-of-the-situation. The fact is that we have been almost totally deserted, by relatives, by teachers, by leaders, by the state and the the church (churches in fact - we are too small to fit in their mutual war for power) and by our everyday co-fellows and their 600$ remarks and their 'misterious' I-know-it-all smiles. The fact is that the vast majority is preparing for the holidays and vacations and the pleasant sun that will so pleasantly warm their asses and sharping their minds for one must be able to talk about the effect of this pleasant sun on their ass-life in a smart and cool and up-to-fashion way over a bottle of coffee or beer after an ample bouton a la coupon de cuisine Napoli spaghetti&pesce. The 'serious' and 'responsible' minority is perhaps thinking where to get money for all that. And, oh, of course, you must also have a nicely shaped face&body to attract enough planets around your center-of-gravity. As to the food for thought, one might read if the red bikini is ok or perhaps the silver one is more in. And where to get good food supplements and how to stay fit to be able to bear this whole load. Stay informed too, read about the cleverest politicians and the strongest gorillas on the first page and in the middle you can get the details about lesser criminals. -Take all these things seriously, sweat for them - go to the point of nervous breakdown if needs be - and you will fit in. And if you fit in - which is a great thing in itself - you get -10% bonus and many many other bonus. Everything is good enough if it can make you forget that you sit in a prison cell, waiting for death.

If you cannot forget it even if you try, then we have a problem... If you ask me one can bet with 100% certainty that in that case you're going to stumble on the Work in some form sooner or later. But you know all that.

About things that scare you, falcon. I waited a little, partly to increase the possibility that you figure out certain things yourself, now let me speak them out. Are you really afraid of that monkey that dresses himself in the same jacket as you and gooblezdoozles close before your nose as if by accident? "Did you see me?" (Yes, I've seen you well, conscious. Have you come to tell me about second line of the Work?) "I know about you. I know everything about you. I know which jacket you wear WHEN I AM NOT AROUND. How about that? Huh?!" C'mon, falcon, all these people conscious? some of them, yes, but... the Work brings people together, and by their fruits you shall know them. Depth of consciousnes is about fact that one can be conscious of many different things.

Perspective, falcon. With time, after a while, you will only smile (kindly, not bitterly or cinically) over cow's five-minute triumph over the weaker hardly won after years of repression. You won't even notice the army of gooblezdoozles monkeys with their 500$ dictionaries and their 600$ jackets even if everyone of them should pull your sleeve - please do notice me. Gradually, a whole century will mean nothing to you. You will become like Sphynx - gazing at the horizon, guarding the entrance to what is behind you, always ready to greet the traveller. Such are the gifts of the - I hate this awkward word - better, such are the gifts of knowing about other-than-Personality, or shortly: gifts of Separation.

I heard about "where two or three are in my name, I'm in the midst of them" and I wonder if this is to be taken literally. In any case it has something to do with the Work that brings people together and with the fruits by which you shall know them. (Geometrical implications are also intriguing - look at the standing triangle from above... from the side...hey, what about static triad...) I'll now put down exactly what I want and what I don't want. First and foremost, I want 'em timid falcons/falconesses to speak up and enjoy themselves here. It's to their advantage that W.H. is nothing/nobody. In fact, it is our advantage. We are too small to be taken seriously by any power-competition. Next: I know very well that those more powerful spirits are also casting their eyes from the heights and that they are of many kinds. Everybody is welcome and in fact we need 'em powerfuls. But behave, i.e. contribute & build XOR buzz off from here. Next: scientists welcome. (Spectrum-knowers welcome, you have no idea how useful you can be here.) Work source knowers welcome. Religious welcome. Musicians, artists, experts welcome. Those of you who believe that you are "more on the doing side" welcome though I think there's no warrant that your self-picture will survive. Report broken links then. Those who are angry because of some post welcome. Those who angry because of the whole blog no chance. However-you-name-hemselves welcome. The only condition is that you want to be aligned with what you understand as the spirit of the Work and that you sense the need (beyond usual personal need) for working along the second line. Security measures against watering down & against usual crow that seeks to instigate funerals: (1) if it begins to stink too much around for too long I'll just close the blog again without warning, you are warned NOW and that suffices. Those who need to have understood, to be sure; others: this does NOT mean that you have to worry lest you should say something 'inapropriate'. (2) there may be response and there may be none. We try and what will be will be. There's no contradiction. Next: I'm not doing this because I want to measure how many people is hanging around here. I simply don't care about that. Next: I don't personally need input because I lacked ideas or excitement or because I would be bored or because I have nothing better to do. (Though I dream that somebody COULD come along and drop me a link to a nicest spectrum one can imagine with right ticks on right colors and all that.) Next: I have to link to at least some of my sources beyond O., G. and N. This site seems to me one of the good choices as a guideline that is 'universal' enough regarding the first line and keeps you on the straight and narrow. (The term "first line" I translate for myself as "that part of it all which is nobody's business really" or "that which is between you and God only" and instruction from the Sermon "When you pray, go into closed chamber..." or something like that seems to talk precisely about this one. Everything depends on it. But then, this very post is written under impression that without second line we're still to remain damned no matter what. There is always enough of second line present, that is true. But I don't have only external considering on my mind right now. What I have in mind is that if the fruits prove that the neutralizing force of life has intervened and not the Work's then something went seriously wrong. This is somewhat delicate matter, for I'm usually the first to rant against Mr. Group's power abuses, whether they be fashioned in "we'll 'educate' you as as we ourselves were 'educated': by degrading provocations and consequent invalidating punishment" manner or more simple "conform or we'll break your spine" way, not to mention "we don't like you, so we throw you out" practice. But then Mr. Group has certain right to say, don't like it? - well, don't criticize until you tried to build your own. And that's precisely what we can - as poor devils & damned souls - attempt to start forming here, by way of blog comments. Our work has to be intensified.

Thus one can say "everything depends on the first line" but no less can one say "everything depends on whether second line functions or not". It would be equally true if one should muse thusly: "everything, really everything depends on the third line in fact". For so it is.

(Posts to do: on three kinds of effort, Bunyan, octaves anyway, on 'theory' and 'practice')

"Tune the string and pluck it, Jones, don't worry about higher harmonics, they sound by themselves."

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Says Disciple. What is the meaning and the essence of Godhead?

Says Teacher. The meaning and the essence of Godhead is infinite tenderness and care. Though, this is very unfortunately said, for, by means of certain curse of my fate, there is in my roles that unfortunate association, I mean, I think of Elvis Presley and this seems to spoil that infinite intelligence and power that I have in mind, er--

Says Disciple. Ok, I understand.

Says Teacher ashamed, I'm sorry. (Looks unhappy.)

Says Disciple. It's ok.

Says Disciple. Say, what is the meaning and the essence of Godhead?

Teacher (stands up and begins to speak as follows). The meaning and the essence of the Godhead is thus. But I don't remember quite...

Disciple. It's ok, go on.

Teacher.

Out of One
comes Two.
Out of Two
Three comes about.

And Three
is the Father-Mother
of ten thousand things.

That is the meaning and the essence of Godhead.
That is its purpose.

Says Disciple approvingly. "Bravo, bravo!" Are you a clown? Or am I in an opera?

Teacher. Kiss this hand - QUICKLY - lest thou feel the hardness of its blow upon your insolent smile -

One hastens to do as the other commandeth.

Teacher. Now deport yourself from my sight.

Pupil bows and leaves.

Teacher. Museth to himself thusly. He is yet so caught into self-picture of a simple knave that he wouldn't understand if I told him what an overflowing joy it is for me to kiss off the dust on his sandals...

But what am I to do now? I'll quit this teaching business. This Work is like a treasure-house full of priceless gems, you cannot tell which is most priceless, but on the practical side, nothing seems to beat the saying, Be thou good disciple if thou wouldst remain a good teacher. Which means that as far as this blog is concerned, I'm on hiatus. Of course I'll miss it, of course fingers will pray for keyboard in vain. -Regarding this focus, the impossible happened. It really came to shine of its own accord a little, and for me personally it became a factory of new connections and even new ideas. -And now that I most desire to say one thousand things more, I'll have to quit. So be it. (If it shows itself that it is not an internet trap that I am sitting in I can still go back anyway.)

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

"Practice love on animals first. They are more sensitive." G. could well had in mind certain kind of people too, it's the same principle. The dog barks. The magic is in understanding the situation. For example, he, as a good dog, might possibly assume that his task is to defend his (masters') territory and he is performing flawlessly. Right? Look, the cat has come from the neighbouring house. What does she want? Caressing? Is she thirsty? Hungry? With attention one might guess.

When crisis comes, nothing one has learned will be of much use. Then I, in fact a religious animal, will say, "I no longer know what to do." I will be in distress. Ordinary methods have failed. All so called strength is gone. Everything acquired I can throw to the winds, and half of 'em godshit is reproaching me of being irresponsible, and the other half is mockingly pointing their finger at the fruits of the moral, civil etc. "responsibility".

In such a case, it is not wrong (just joking... way of...) to assume very sincere, very humble attitude. But before I go on, let's pass to the next note.

Many good ideas ideas come to me in the bathroom under the shower. I was sort of disappointed at first, you know, like "other people get good ideas when doing the dishes". But really, I mean, who cares, an idea is an idea. And it is MY DUTY to point potential source of good ideas to people who might be interested in approaching the Work. (I'm either joking too much or in the wrong place -- I'm beginning to HATE this 'joking' style.)

Now, before going back to crisis, we have to dispose with the godshit hordes. If the idea whispered to you is theirs, you will go back to hell. And everybody who listens to you and believes you. Welcome to the crisis.

What was I getting at. Oh yes, now, the crisis is real. I have followed the Work at the best of my ability. I was passive, I was active, I was balanced, I was crooked. I was studying and I was throwing books overboard. But it all leads to nothing. Wait! At least I know by now that such fast conclusions ("I attained nothing, nothing absolutely nothing!!!", "my God, all these years, and I still haven't found how to develop one single inch further", "oh my, why why why is it impossible to develop") are illusory, false, yet, I do not know what to do. If I believe those voices even God cannot help me. But now I face real crisis. I really don't know what to do. All I know is I don't want to screw up.

Ok. Perhaps too many words, but at least the situation is clear. What am I getting at. I need an idea, clarity, understanding of my situation, understanding of what I have to do. I literally need somebody to tell me what to do and what not to do plus some other things more difficult to describe. What do I do? (You will see why I cannot write very well here. [A better writer could perhaps correlate words and actual inner state better.] So let's try an approximation. Yeah, indeed, as close as it gets...) I address Higher Powers, Guys Up There, God, name it as you like. I want -- I don't say I say I want, I say I want, I need, I know I need, I will -- not an answer in words, but actual intervention -- not from the godshit horde but from Son of God himself, to use Bible phrasing.

Just a minute. It is not a demand -- it's not impatient whinning. It is not "believing" that it can happen. It is not "hoping" desperately. It is not "loving" Son of God though all those things have their place and value. But not at times like this! It is vertical communication, believe it or not, it's to know that things are going to be all right (blast, now it sounds like new age stroking of a grossed-out member), that Holy Spirit is going to intervene (perhaps not 'later' in time, because it must have 'intervened' some time before your asking). And knowing in this sense is a degree of being conscious of it. (Yet it is also 'acting', that's why I'm putting together this post.)

Bible is full of proofs that such things happen. I vaguely recall "before you ask I will answer" and other things but now I forget. They were in my head though just a mometn ago while my fingers were busy typing my stupid jokes. Never mind. Bunyan, by the way, has many qualities but a striking one is that through all the use of similitude and allegory you feel personal experience behind every word, not (only) his personal experience but yours very own. Another proof you can create with the help of imagination. Raymond: "Help! Look, I cared not to bother You unnecessarily but now I am come into very great trouble. Listen guys, if Lord himself doesn't do something about it I don't know what. I'm clueless." Jesus: "Ah, Raymond, finally you remember me! How come? Want a cigarette? Would you prefer another whore? Come, you are hungry. Go to a restaurant to enable your thinking. Ponder a little, lie on the couch. Go kill a cow! Very good sport! It's good for your development. Skiing, Raymond, sauna, that's what you need, this will develop your moving centre. But look, your social position doesn't really support your petition. Go earn some money, be at least good householder. THEN come and ask and MAYBE I'll listen. Move a little further from me, you stink. You stink of immorality and laziness to begin with. Hey guys! Lock this one. Let him rethink his life. This is the beggining of self-observation. I will come to visit him periodically. It's my personal satisfaction. Lots of gnashing of teeth, and than this dog will die -- slowly -- in sloth and darkness. It's true I have no time -- lots of planetary business, you know -- but I'll always find time to watch this dog die and-- satiate-- my revengful thirst-- grrhh-- with these delectable groans and tears, I swear, I will not miss a single chance etc. etc. etc."

It's a good day for work, full of crises. I hope I will not regret this being in good mood (anxious thought: no, it CAN'T be the beer?... ONLY one can...?) for advice. No, it's not the beer, I've been thinking of it for some time now. It's the New Model by O. I remember how enlightening the last chapter was for me. After some years, to read it again was a fresh discovery. In any case, nothing similar have I ever found elsewhere. It has many qualities, e.g. if I only think that without it I would to this day roam the earth thinking that something is wrong with me because I don't find certain things funny. I got it. I have this unpleasant feeling because somebody might read it and say, well, something unpleasant, whatever. Got you! Now just leave, Mr. "Feeling". Oh, that was quick. Mr. "Feeling" was quick. Too quick for my sharp remark which I was just about to formulate to myself, to throw it after him. Those who need it will get it, that's it.

The idea is that what is above, very great power and intelligence, corresponds to your Real 'I', thus with your Real Will. I and Father are one. You have all the power. The trouble is that for some time You used this power along inapropriate channels, creating things You now don't want. The idea is that this is not irreversible. That remedy can be found. The idea is that the problem, looked from above, having at disposal all and every possible quality and attribute, having all and every 'permission' to wield 'em powers at Real Will rpm, might not exist as a problem. Hey, guys! Look what I've found! A doggy! Cute, huh? Must be young. He says his name is Raymond. Yes, he's a talking dog. Raymond says he can't see. It is "dark", he says... hmmm... reminds me of something...

I think of this ancient Chinese proverb that I read somewhere (I forget): The Great Connoisseur is rarely in error. Some place from Acts comes to my mind, willst thou call impure what God has called pure? There must be other places-- just a minute, Mr. "Feeling", here's the door, yes, don't come back, look, I've very important business to settle, no, no, I don't care what people will say, what do you mean if I'm sure, of course I'm sure. Completely certain, I assure you. Bye bye. Dear Mr. Computer Screen, I apologize, had to settle few minor things with Mr. Unpleasant, who is technically no other than Internal Considering. Obviously it cannot be allowed to disturb us on this occasion:

The Great Connoisseur does not err.