letz get d'snowball rollin

Finish'd Joshua, movin thru Judges, the Good News are on the way... Will proceed at my own slow (going to allow no 'I' to call it lazy) pace. Anticipating encounters with Hiob and Isaiah and what not before I get there. Anticipate some surprises, too. First reading has taught me I better expect surprises. Sounds pretty normal but it's weird. "Anticipate some things not anticipated."

Things are getting clearer. There is no justice, it's a non-idea, something that appears an idea, and big garbage if one believes in it, for a person infected with such a non-idea could constantly expect this not-something to influence events on the level of general life; well, it does not, and on finding about the terror of the situation one could then be driven to thigs harmful to development. (They are many, but they eventually sum up as FP, identification etc., things we are told, basically, to get rid of. And absence of justice is in itself enough to harm development, we couldn't really cope with added "internal weight") What there is, though, is some idea of some "constitutional rights", (well, at least in most civilized countries, I suppose, and in this case, if one could dig deep enough, at least sure to be found in traces in some constitutional root) and they are probably meant to serve to ensure what most everybody needs, else Work would be a fiction too. Sad but true, or name-it but true, this flesh body is needed. As an outer course of action, I do better enforce whatever "constitutional right" there may be but still more important is internal "no" to every attack at my personal integrity, whether it is lack of food or lack of 'respect', or some false accusations or some ungrounded demands. Or simply those loads of garbage that are mostly below logical thinking while trying to pass as something above it, as psychological thinking. (If that was psychological thinking there would be really alot of psychological thinking in this world, and quite enough truly intelligent people.) But still the most important part of the danger would be my own rigid opinionism and violence. (true, even if name-it...) In shorthand, I must not attack to not be attacked. (One begins doing by learning not to do certain things. To do "not do certaing things" begins mostly by not fostering certain trains of thought, replacing them, if possible, by more evolved types of thinking, "other themes" to speak practically.)

[These are just short notes and not meant to Work-educate ANYONE. But they can possibly be understood and profited from if, and only if, you already have the foundations under your belt. And foundation is at minimum to read this blog from the beginning and check out the references given and maybe even those only hinted at.]

What then is one to do with those blessings for "those who thirst after justice"?This, of course, is something different, it is one of the core elements of strictly practical teaching of Jesus. This is the REWARDS or pay or wages of the Work. In the Work, there IS justice. This was the point. All the time, it's just that I didn't get it until now. There is immediate getting under another influence, for example. It may not be noticeable but it is there. The idea of justice is that the Work brings its results without fail, just as in ordinary life justice so called limps on both feet without fail, as it could be said, though I'm more inclined to believe that it lies on the ground stone dead and barely opens its eyes once in a year without fail.

Other results may take time to show up. I don't believe there's one single man or angel or god that can quite predict them. It is possible (and personally I think it's perfectly true) that we don't have the necessary categories to think or discuss all kinds of results that are bound to come. But they are bound to come, and this is justice. It's just that our associations are so screwed up that immediately upon hearing "justice" we see the prison bars, attorneys, courts and judges. Even old Israelites were more civilized as we. They still had reason for joy because the Lord was full of justice and mercy and everything. Just reading the OT without transforming impressions would probably only emphasize the retributive side of it all.

The results come on condition that the Work is not done because of them, for this can lead to identifying with one's own efforts. Why then would one Work? The answer is clear, but only to those who are far enough to not ask such a question (this is not that far, by the way.) Here's a similar idea from Zen, a healing agent for you which will be effective if you don't think about a crocodile with a green-purplish hat, something like that. It's similar but it has little to do with this. However, like this it is also an insoluble paradox on the level of ordinary logical thinking, for this level.

Let the garbage 'do' what they have to 'do' (or 'think' they HAVE to do.) The very fact they don't know better than to waylay (wah-lah would do in this case) should tell you everything you possibly want to know. Let the junk grow together with the wheat, goes the practical doctrine. Later, the garbage will go their own way. Where and how they will end up is none of our concern. According to the 'justice' of the world, crime is best suited for high chairs and exquisite dishes, wherefrom to execute the ruling role of the obedient, fearfulful crowd. The folks divide, they impera. Both hate God which they don't know and both engage (with their neighbours) in useless-tasteless-stupid-harmful let-us-screw-each-other game. Neighbour is somebody they can reach, of course.

There is absolutely nothing that is monkish or that is 'religious' in following, I emphasize again, practical, useful advice of not going the way of the world in many, many respects.

Turn your mind to the Work now. You cannot stay with your CroCo, no matter how naughty he is. Like, you are going to read two or three more pages with attention. (H__ Enlightened Majesty of W.H. is approaching conclusion OF THIS POST. Capitals, for it is understandable that this blog is a very negligible branch of HEMWH's Activities. No paper or internet pages are meant. ) Choose your domain and become active in it. There are good reasons for exposing every nuance ,of:)) the .self and the -- world in the Work while leaving the Work itself in a not very clearly described state. The Work is the Kingdom and it does not begin by offering the Young King/Queen a pattern slavishly to be followed . It is up to you to "write" the "pages", if you will. There are no rules of the common junk kind that exist only to be broken later in order to fuck up Young King/Princess to whom, if h__ really be at The Entrance, ugly tricks of the streets of Vatican avenues of Name-it have almost became a deadly trap already, name-it but true.

There are other reasons. Imagine, for example, how efficient emotional centre would be. While you ordinaily type 'A', emotional centre has already typed 30000 characters of messages to your friends. Accordingly, there is sufficient boost of productivity in the Kingdom to satisfy most demanding standards.

Q. Is it true that W.H. is not afraid of NOBODY? Not even of Scientologists??!

A. W.H.'s body has instincts like every body. Therefore, it must be said, the junk uses the body to instill fear. Take one example and cripple it before a multitude who will shake with fear to the rest of their lives, is the recipe of the junk. Possibly, provoke the example to actions before that that you specifically want to show to the public as particularly undesirable to the ruler. That is the way of the institution and organization and the state and the church, to impress people with the terrible power they have. Apart from from connected with the weakness of the body, W.H. hasn't yet found a single reason for fearing advanced, enlightened people, or, if you like, people of caliber, or people of quality. This is not a result of the Work but probably a result of series of encounters. There's a lot of junk to find at Scientologists, like everywhere else, and there's an ongoing question if the cargo has anything to do with the flag, like everywhere else. They have some holders of Diploma of Ethics, or how do they call it, who are certainly better sent to prison than be given a diploma, for such is a rewarding of what they actually they don't want to reward, says their flag. I DON'T KNOW much about the rest, but, in general I hold no evil feelings against them. For example, I really don't fear to tell the general truth that it is no Art to cripple a member. If this was Art there would be many Artists in this world. Various anthroposophists and scientologists and tons of like names are also in terribly criminal state regarding their knowledge of logic, mathematics, financial mathematics, busines mathematics, simply simple honesty, and of course, ethics. However, I also find these defects very easy to remedy with a little of good will and a minimum dose of simply simple humanity. I also find that a little of good will & common sense etc. finds its way into various 'ADVANCED' institutions with uncommon difficulty. I am also not afraid to tell that one simply simple human is far better than host of various 'thoroughly trained' militantly inclined would-be-slaying-machines types, who seem to even be proud of it. (I'm also inclined to believe that despite that such organizations statistically have greater density, greater amount of men of quality than ordinarily is the case. For, biblically-statistically, a man of quality is a rare animal, with an average frequency of occurence one in a thousand.) What is called 'civil state', however, is far more criminal than any of these institutions. Let us not forget that borrowing a book, say, from an antroposophic ar a scientologic library, does not present a problem. Even if a book is lost, rare, valuable book, lent to you by theosophists, the issue will not be made into a problem. But some state libraries have entered criminal frame of mind as it is evident that they believe they may and must block access to books they are instituted to provide access to. To a chosen individual, me, of course, and they evidently believe that higher influence can suggest something like that. This same influence has also created computers and authorized the library staff to fully abuse them against chosen members (other people, and lo, me as well, which is how I know about it). Like our enlightened friend and advisor Mullah Nassr Eddin would say: "Yeah, totally and absolutely indubitaly sure." "Yes, my ass," he would turn to his mule, who would look back at him with sort of intelligent look and nod slightly. This was one of Mullah Nassr Eddin most powerful practices. He would talk to his mule as if it was a man. The results were that he grew a 'soul' within the animal. Animal was as if endowed with every subtle stirring of spirit that those who think that they know generally attribute only to human form. That it could neither speak nor respond in some other usual way was alone prevented by what I find no other way to refer to than to call it 'organic reasons'.

So I really don't understand your question. We are faced with the disaster of all disasters, Bush's medieval 'America', most terrible snowball rolling at us from the past, and Europe quickly becoming just like it. I don't know if it is more terrible that it means ultimate RULE OF THE MILITARY or that majority doesn't see, or doesn't want to see that. I know, most terrible is that you come at me asking me something about some stupid things. You don't know what chaotic conditions mean for possible instance of existence of real 'school', obviously.

Q. Did W.H. manufacture the big Q.-questions all by himself?

A. I'll keep it a secret whether it is him- or herself. For the rest, I can say, yes, of course. It is partly because this blog was not DESIGNED to remain one upmanship fostering institution, but has to this moment remained such as it is. I talk to myself and anticipate what questions could appear.

Q. Are things going to change for the better?

A. Possibly, despite appearances. I was aware of it before, but didn't want to publish it, for it could easy be something entirely false and shallow. Things are really going to get better. But only on the level where justice makes sense. And only when the ball rolls long enough to get big. However, there's more, for every genuine Work brings blessings for the world too. My personal line has always been directed at undermining machine authority, and when it rolls sufficently far the last little common sense will have unprecedented authority over state machines and bureaocratix cattle (I admit I cannot spell the word) and highly nobilissimus police-like 'trained' dogs. JAG won't sell anymore, TV companies won't buy it. (But this is on personal line, of course.) More important is that MEN shall have authority OVER computers, over MACHINES, if you like. A problem that Asimov was apparently able to see. A good future at the worldly level is in store for us, we'll have to work it out though, it will not just come by itself. Snowball is going to become avalanche, it will harvest (v.), biblically speaking. This is funny! Gee, I feel like a prophet! THINGS ARE GOING TO SORT ITSELF OUT. HE that shall not suffer your lack of respect hath spoken. However, the speaking machine, H__ Kind Reverence W.H., thereby grants you privileges to calumniate H__ Enlightened Person W.H. and make fun of as much as you please, one little, one a little more, according to the measure of your stupidity.

I think I thaw a puth- yes, I did see this incredible scene, namely a white dove within a group of some normal grey pigeons on the dirty, miserable street. And then I, (oh, you can call me W.H. if the need to call me by name arises) remembered that that there is more.

The best thing would be to be able to see some white animal in nature, but there's one almost legitimate substitute (I randomly provide two links in case one gets broken):

http://www.classicreader.com/booktoc.php/sid.1/bookid.309/

http://www.americanliterature.com/MD/MDINDEX.HTML

It's really awful stuff and it's a pity that it is a celebrated classic, because then one thinks "ah, everybody knows it, let's get to something more interesting" or one thinks that there must be very many people out there who know quite alot about it, since there are so many warm welcomes and introductions and guides for beginners and How-To-Reads for the first time and so on. Probably there's a load of all sorts of essays on multifacetios diverse aspects of Melville's intentions regarding his learned friend's elaborations on female vs. male underwear, political and also naval ship climate. And yet, I claim such assumption to be an error.

Now previous paragraph was not exactly a success, was it? Well, my inkstand is not Vesuvius is it. But what I intend to communicate is that you should not allow yourself to be put off this... source, whatever the reason. ("source" does not sound too bad in this case, does it) And that I usually find too much discoursing about it worse than useless, with obvious exceptions, biographical data etc. If your wish is to go there then go... don't have to pay too much attention to what those who didn't go have to say about it instead. It's beyond me also, to tell whether it is essence or magnetic center who thirsts after such 'drink' or which of them is it that wants to awaken and grow or is it something else. The point is there is a way to get to the thing. Third point is to look, while reading, at this strange, literally other-worldly whiteness. There's some attempt in chapters 41 and 42 but, really, in the whole novel, which strikes me as getting as close as one can possibly get.

Now suppose someone, having just read the book, feels that strange determination - well known to those of us who have gained some modest experience in these matters - taking roots inside, gaining ground, as it were, and the decision be taken to do nothing less than to read the book once again. It is my personal opinion, but I'm sort of forced to publish it, in the sense that I don't wish to resist the urge to submit: there is no reason to believe that such decisions and actions do in any way unfavorably interfere with Work objectives ... and so on.

Q. Can you tell us more regarding this Work?

A. No. Since your interest is not genuine. Even God could not tell you something if your interest is nto genuine. But I'm going to try to, since some of your readers might actually understand what is being said. It is like clearing accounts. Just think of the bank robbery or something you see on TV. Voila! There's nothing left on the accounts. You have zero point zero. This Work is like purification. Have you ever applied to some So and So in the Matter Such and Such? I'm just asking because people like you are extremely fond of using phrases such as rite of passage and reality test and so on without having a notion of what they meean. Now imagine if you can that your application is rejected. Now imagine this being repeated several times through the years. What comes about? You are so loaded with phrases, you should know. Purification, of course. Big purification. Purification comes about. The person in question is being purified.

I think this is the point. Like Moses, you have to befriend the rock of obstacles by hitting it with a stick, until the water flows. The water is well known purifying agent. Passive, as it were, but pre-eminently - ouch, I almost said pre-adamitically - effective. Thus NEW CHANCE is created. By means of purification, that is.

A. You are a well-known writer in Work cir-

Q. Bullshit. Just stop, now. I'd rather be dead than well-known writer. Personally, I have other needs. Beyond personal sphere, what has to be done is to create a new chance, a new possibility, a possibility that didn't existed before or was hidden or blocked. For one example among many, creation of a small, not too ambitious working group would be highly recommended. An then you should see these smart-face rites-of-passage taking their tail between the legs! You could only see their backs, I'm afraid, while they crawled away, as if you mentioned Devil to a Christian. But let's rather go back to the issue.

Q. Thank you for this captivating interview.

A. You will know you have been talking too much when you won't be able to rememeber what it was that you said. Weng-Lin-Yuen, for example, puts it succintly: Ten thousand things, he says, borrowed their name, he says, from the Great Mother, he says.

one, two, three, I(me), am (to be), to know/to see, man/people

more on nuts&bolts of the teaching

(All that stuff about non-considering seems to me to be about not being internally affected by what people think (about you; about what is, after all, not their business etc.); at least if you can get near to that it must mean a big accomplishment. No intensification of effort alone, it seems, is sufficient to tweak it all up to the required degree, though. Change in the framework of ideas themselves is necessary. Ideas about what people know, and about what people are.)

The thesis that I, it seems, began to develop here, almost unwittingly, is that the Gospels are in high degree embodiment of very advanced level of teaching.

Personally, it was all motivated by notion, brought to me, as I believe, by my conscience and consciousness (quite distinct from mere self-picture), by the notion that I am quite ignorant (I think in this connection about one person, Ignorant, from Bunyan's Pilgrim) and, despite all endevour, simply stated, stupid, in short, a fool. Even more than that, I knew myself positively guilty of what is best described by the verse, I don't know the exact wording: hast thou seen a man who thinks he is wise? There's more hope for a fool than for him.

Later it popped up that that was indeed the centre-of-gravity of the whole business (in case you will had been just gotten jumped on the chair of thine again, Watson: of the matter), and that it was indeed the stone which breakes everything that it falls on, and the rock that will beware the house that's built on it, in, say, the storm.

Now the word that you will find in literature just beside the 'truth' is appearance, and phenomenon, and the like. And in the same breath it will be added something like, things are not what they appear to be. Special case of it would be that people are not what they appear to be. May have wolf's garment, but be a sheep. May be a wolf, but in sheep's clothes.

Then there's this approach, or method, that by certain authors that (that's my bet) most readers here know virtually nothing about, which we find so interesting and which says of itself that it is psychological, using this expression, it seems, in a very special and at the same time widened and deepend meaning. Following this method, we do not anymore ask primarily, what is truth, but certainly, how can the truth come about?

It further says that it comes about by the desire to know, and it speaks of things that may most probably hinder such desired development. Personally, I think that the terror that I felt, like, what, am I going to live and to die a FOOL? is one form that the said desire may take. In any case, to die like a dog seemed a preffered way to such, that's why I use 'terror' to describe it.

Concerning the above, we are given an advice to transform impressions as they come of themselves and it is said that self-remembering does it. Like most everybody else, I also did jump and said: how is this self-remembering? Where is it? How can I get to it? Gimme this magic pill! Later it showed up that it was indeed magic, but no more of that (because I am trying hard to gather my thoughts and don't want distractions for the time being.)

Yes, there this guy Jesus comes along. Of him it is said he did actually know a lot of things. (Of course, he could also perform wonderful works, but knowledge alone is appealing enough when you get into the above state.) He didn't need to be told anything because he himself knew what is in people, it is said. He knew of one man there that he will be with him in paradise on the same day. He didn't seem obsessed by proving that he knows, but he did have an interest to show things to people (I know, Father, that you hear even before I speak, but because of people I say...)

Why am I writing this? I mean, I, W.H.? Because I realized some things and am very excited about it, while enjoying royal privilege of perfect piece, rest and balance. In short, I could enjoy my royal privilege of perfect peace&balance, but then I exercised my royal privilege to disturb the mentioned enoying of my said royalty to tell you about it. But to be as honest as I can, I'll tell you the whole truth, how it really was. It was that I was enjoying this royal peace like a stream of perpetual and increasing knowledge, quite aware that such is the form in which usual, typical luciferic temptation appears, could appear, I must say, only if I allowed myself to combine the royal status with the usual stupidity of mine. So, I was on guard, as it were. Then my royal wish to tell you about it disturbed said peace and balance, and I excercised my royalties to maintain that balance. In short, went to my computer, which is almost in the next room of my royal station, and am now writing about it so my joy may be perfect, as John said, and Jung, I guess, added that perfect quite possibly also signifies: complete. I describe it as disturbance because some idiot might easily stand up and say, eh, Wh, bragging as usual, and I exercised my royal privilege to take that risk.

And what is it that I found out? I found out that Jesus, the sacrificial sheep, the meek and blameless idiot, and a speaker of blasphemy and proclaimer of the lunacy of the cross, and so on, was really a priest of the order of Doesn't Matter, and a World Conqueror as far as knowledge&experience and ability was concerned, and a King, fully exercising his royalties which in the Kingdom of his, where everybody is a King anyway, primarily mean to indulge in deep tranquility which only wisdom can give, thereby granting such King mastery over himself.

That means, if I may guess a little, that everything was knowingly enacted on the scenes, and that the whole drama, real drama, was just what His royal appetites longed to be faced with, the right challenge for him. Why did he did it? I can only speculate here, but I think he was moved with the royal wish of his to tell others about it and possibly help enfolding of the kingdom in them. He would have gladly lead them on the way, but when others 'saw' that what he is leading them to is everything but bliss, he was left alone. I say 'saw' because it seems to me that their own perception must have played a trick on them.

I could now stop but one thing seems curious to me because it is the same in the Gospels and in my own observation. In fact, in the Gospels it is much more developed than what I myself got to know. I said to know, without quotation marks, because it seems to me that It is even so. I remember some instances in my life when I said to some: I know you better than you know yourself. Later I grew terribly asshamed of my 'wisdom', and with reason. But now I have got to know what some people's 'master' commands them to do. Their 'master', their 'god', whom they possibly love, tells them to kill, and they kill daily. That's why the Gospels say that those who will kill them will think that they serve God. I couldn't identify the god they serve YET, "yet" indicating that I have some desire to do so, but the Gospels are much more advanced. They say clearly, for example, that by their fruits ye shall know them. And for a fruit to grow, you might HAVE TO wait a little, you know, a must without a caveat. Jesus said directly something like, I know you, you are murderers and liars, and now he says something mysterious. Your father is devil, and satan, he says. The father of all lies, he says. This, Watson, is a veritable mistery to unravel. Even God the Absolute seems comparably easy to solve, compared to that. Just look at something to be afraid of, I mean, somebody who was not afraid of all the contempt and death the archterror, be afraid of those who murder your soul, not your body.

In this connection I remember how I was always hating people who were 'smart'. Until once I did will have been caught myself, playing it smart against somebody who did nothing further than looking at me, and in a very warm way, I shall say, and I was busy with my own smartness and I didn't even fucking see what was right before me. I say fucking, Watson, because unpleasant it was, indeed it was, Watson. The 'smart' guy was me.

this is a true story.

there was a tree.

the tree has been borne fruit.

when the fruit reach the ground, twenty more trees sprung up, each bigger and more teeming with life and with richer fruit than the first.

strange things happened. but trees grew on.

on higher teaching - further tries

my words will remain, even when this earth and everything will be gone; things like this. Of course not actual written or spoken words are meant because they do not last THAT long.

he on whom this stone falls is gonna go to pieces. Characteristic of higher teaching too. When will it happen is not said, but it will happen. Now, it's not a literal stone, this is obvious. Something about incomparable power of higher class of ideas (Holy Spirit, if I may speculate.)

But this is just by the way.

Will not be forgiven. Of course, it might be, and it better be, but when you shit over the son of man all too often and all too much, it is because you hate the ideas themselves. Just speculating. No one belonging to a school can play a role which opposes the school.

Now to ordinay man everything foreign is a threat anyway. That's why it's no use talking to them. These 'teachings' are 'given' to religious leaders, and to state slaves. And lo and behold, when they eat them, their faces are merry, they are taught to pull faces that way every time they go a-murdering. State people are not so merry, at least not sincerely. They know too well that they are doomed if they go on daily in murder-approving, murder-practicing manner, yet they do it because it is their very job, their very wages depend on it. It will require a lot of hands-washing, and they are worried because no hands-washing will actually suffice in such case. Thus, Jesus is milder to Pilate than to anyone else. (In case you were asking if it is possible to know virtually everything about the methods of the state without practising them - the answer is yes.)

Next, we got the mob. This, simply, people. But, people something healthy, while mob always people plus newspapers, politics, 'culture', some indoctrination, some resentment, economic or matter of 'honor' or 'justice', or nationalism.

But let's take a look at religious authorities. Clearly, these are the initiators and executors of the murder(s) themselves, ok, they might urgently need the state sometimes. "He said he was God," that was his sin. And this is certainly outrageous and unheard blasphemy. I see the outlines of the problem along the following. That we are gods is obvious and nothing unusual, it's a most common and truistic truth that one can think of. Certainly nothing surprising. That esotericism exists because people in general do not know it is plain. That people for some curious reason go MAD if they are told this is apparent, at least to me. That they must be educated in this stage by stage, in intelligent way, and as a consequence of their own seeking and in accord with their own demand, is clear. (That some years ago I thought just the other way round does not change the matter. From 'terribly stupid' to 'moderately stupid' is a line of natural progression of things, and a non-reversible one.) Jesus' teaching was practical, and he certainly didn't come to announce the stupidity he was accused of. That's why he doesn't answer with 'I did say' or 'I didn't say it'.

It is possible to convince oneself that Steiner was not a murderer. The methods are outlined in previous posts. Just the same, Hubbard, he was not a murderer. Spalding, no murderer here. Eckhart, not a murderer. Even the worst of 'em all, notorious Greatbeastly Evilest Man Of England, didn't kill many peole, did he. G., N., O., not murderers, except that G. promised to 'kill' brunette titillations. Which leads to inescapable conclusion about organizatorial dynamics, my dear Watson, which also, as you remember, Krishnamurti alluded to in the familiar devil&truth anecdote. Inclination to truthful, careful and detailed research, these are the first fruits of Science, my dear Watson.

I really have been asking myself for YEARS what in the world makes them so angry. And why do they pull their faces so polite and merry when they are. But maybe I really SHOULDN'T try to understand everything, just like a program you are given and now use without going through its internal build, without figuring out every detail. All in all, that's what it boils down to: when you get connected to certain ideas, you begin to be hated. ALL the instances of these haters (I hope you are not saying: oh, I see, now you identify yourself with Jesus... But in case you do, I say once again that I AM INTERESTED in Jesus' ideas because I have noticed that also today's intellectual and theological world thinks it very strange that Jesus had any ideas... ), and I have seen many instances of them, tries to impress you with how smart they are and how powerful they are.

Some people DID, perhaps and probably involuntarily, made a lasting impression upon my astonished and thankful observation, to begin with. I would not call them 'haters', though. Bad for the above category, I must say, bad, as they are sure to fail with their desired result, and that is to force me to recognize them as big and true initiates. Crazy, eh? Who am I to... let's just drop it. Dead alley of thinking, will not lead anywhere. Maybe it is the other way round and they must be 'stupid in higher sense' to even engage in such 'evil' stupidities, neglecting what IS necessary.

Here are the results of my observations, which I do not at least understand. If you begin to study the Bible to intimately get to know Jesus' ideas you will fare as if you were Jesus himself. I admit it is crazy. Who am I to...?! Drop it, drop it. Crazy or not, this is the result of my observations.

Good! For it is getting brighter and I can already see that his fate must have been a joyous one. That he was a simple martyr who taught, among other impracticalities and utopias, to be stupid and engage in cultivating 'moral' and 'humble' character (particularly when faced with 'stronger' and 'more influential' people, eh?), is, after all, rather simple LIE, no matter how wide spread. He made himself God and he died because of the church of those days, but lo, he was God indeed and today's church is recognizing this and has put him on a pedestal. (Thank God he is dead.) For the state, he does not even exist, nor does he matter much, if at all. This is the strangest, the most incongruent story I have ever heard, Watson, what do you think? Nothing fits together. Maybe there's further clue in the book. Be it how it will, what we've got here is somebody who does not play the 'game' by seeing through it. And as a doctor it must have rather will had been gotten dropped to thoust hearded ears how 'games' effectively stop development in early years, shan't thou sayesth?