a 'work' site; infection with _the_ teaching urge; could be, by graceful texts of P.D. Ouspensky; it happens when people _are_ but also when they are _not_ e.g. bloggers, writers, teachers etc., i.e. & so on down the scale. Symptoms stronger if such had the privilege of enjoying erudition of Gurdjieff, or had their understanding nourished by Nicoll's Commentaries' unmistakable feel. Maybe during childhood. Maybe some are to experience the symptom, _yet_... time is relative.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

specialization, humility

I don't think specialists can achieve anything in this Work. It's necessary to have special knowledge to perform well within a profession in life, to do well your job in life, that's right. Next, particular lines of Work have their 'special details', needless to say. A Buddhist in Asia necessarily views this Work from another 'angle' than we do. Apart from that, specialization is another word for lopsidedness, and hence, an obstruction. What you need is a general knowledge of what life is, how people live, what they think, what they need, what they want, what they strive to achieve. There is a whole spectrum, for there are cultural, geographical, economical, racial, biological (gender) differences. (And it's not a question whether your place in the spectrum is a special place from where you are enabled to freely evaluate and judge what you see. But it's possible to determine your place to some extent and win some freedom from being determined by it in your outlook.) The spectrum also concerns differences between human beings, internal differences.

These differences concern valuation, effort, faith, possesion of magnetic centre, eventual contact with 'schools' and much more, in short: being. Also knowledge, of course. After some thinking, they are not less important than life differences. Now, to see the whole spectrum of the entities in this universe is more difficult, isn't it? For, there might be entities that belong 'lower' than you - inferiors. Then those close to you - equals. These both categories you can see. The trouble lies mainly in those who are 'higher' than you - superiors. How could you 'see' those?

Let's jump to a seemingly unrelated subject. Didn't you observe how underestimated simple logical thinking is in this world? Didn't you observe how extremely useful logical thinking is? How come? Does it not tell us (does it not enable us to calculate precisely, so to speak) that the main problem at entering this Work can be self-overestimation? In other words, thinking that we already posses that what we still have to attain? "But I'm full of self-love. Therefore I certainly know what is to love my Self." What do we have to attain? We've got to either find in ourselves or build in ourselves that which pertains to higher levels of the spectrum, don't we? "Of course, I'm conscious of that." How will we see something that we don't see in ourselves? "I don't know. How strange. Otherwise I know everything." Why do we see lower levels? Because they have something we know in ourselves as well.

Now, isn't this humility? Is it not so, that humility is not so much a quality of character, something that one has, than it is absence, being-free-of of some serious obstacles? Do not judge may well mean Do not underestimate. Logical thinking, for example. Then psychological or even esoteric thinking, about which we do not know that much yet. Then higher beings that are our only chance to pull us from the level we currently reside on. Here, does it all strike certain cords in us that could be called: heeroosmulka-groovnian (approx. meaning: similar-to-what-religion-teaches)? Is logical thinking not great help in seeing that it's extremely improbable that we are at the extreme upper edge of the universal scale?

We often want to cooperate with and communicate with lower beings. We often love and like them. Owner/dog. Parent/child. Wouldn't it be logical to suppose that we are not the highest crown of the Universe? Wouldn't it be logical to suppose that higher beings love us and want to literally serve us in the process? Would it be wise to underestimate simple parent/child that nature and life put before our eyes as an image and analogy of inner realities? Would that bring new light to the opening line of theLord's Prayer? (No, if one remembers that long ago there were gentlemen who seriously confessed that they don't know much about DO and SI notes of second cosmic octave. How seriously they were taken is another question. By people who understood it oh all so well. Knowledge is joy! The gentlemen must have alluded to certain Dominic they all knew and his pepperoni affairs with certain Mrs. S., but in a way that only those knowleadgable among us understood.)

What are rules and regulations and exercises and esoteric knowledge&instruction other than practices that help us find (or build up, as an alternative) in ourselves that which in more bountiful measure exists in entities higher up the spectrum? (Oh and I forget to mention book reading. Not exactly am I confident that beings higer up the inner scale have read more books as a rule, but some of them might.)

Do not these simple considerations so far, if taken seriously

1) show us that knowledge and means to develop oneself really abound around us? (B influences) 2) provide a basis from which one can 'take off' on one's own, without danger of being misguided?

What I understand by humility is basically what a child feels towards its higher counterparts. They take it for granted that those are simply higher and that's it. I don't see a trace of humiliation in it. . . what whispers: "beware, humiliation, humiliation" is inner pride anyway, the inner devil. (I'm going to leave out 'less perfect' masters/parents now, although they open interesting domain.) And what self-will suggests is to get angry because some strange 'freedom' that to child would be fatal is denied us. Run over the street without looking around. Play with bombs. Something like that. I want my mom NOW! when mom is doing her shift ten miles away. But where another big problem lies is that analogy here is not perfect. An atheist, a materialist, rationalist, a believer in blind fate or impersonal deity, simply denies that there is something higher. Of which we are much like children. All those types that one can see outwardly represent some serious blindness in us. Then idolatry would be a monkey child hugging his plastic, stone-dead mother desperately, an orphan holding its teddy bear tightly.

It all gets complicated. I can't think on well from here. (It's typical, by the way. A sign that we move on... out of accustomed landscape.) I'll just try to try to determine where 3) C influences come in in today's scheme. They come in when you can 'see' them. (Not that they have to come as if they were not there all the time.) And you won't see them if you don't see C-influence-in-yourself. And to see/find/build it in yourself is what this Work, the ABC of Christianity, is about.

We'll leave whether you have to build a soul or do you already have it, for some other time. Suffice it to say that probably those who 'built' it are probably convinced that they didn't build anything, that the soul was always there... I wouldn't wonder if it appeared to logical thinking as something paradoxical. I don't discern psychological method well, yet it's a kind of higher paradox, logical paradox, so to speak, that points rather to psychological than to irrational thinking. (Speaking of that, I am firmly convinced that those who actually attain salvation, liberation from sin, actually think there was never any such strange thing that people call sin.)

Now do me a favor and don't ask that stupid question WITWA again. Otherwise I'll begin to call you Witwa. What is this Work about? Witwa, would you like to have a glass of milk?

There are probably a thousand good sides to prayer, ways to use it, to profit from it, aims that it is used for. Higher intent with Jesus' Prayer probably lies in the meaning, not in the words. That is, it is probably a portrayal of establishing conscious contact, an image in words. So, what is this cup for? It is for me. Let it not pass by, but that I may drink it. I cannot drink it in self-will as I am used to do other things. Therefore Thy will happen.

Well, quite a mystery (mystery=too big for logical thinking). I feel inclined to repeat the advice. Don't underestimate logical thinking, what active reasoning can do within you. Practically it's the gate to psychological thinking. Don't underestimate psychological thinking either - but that's already an understatement. For it must be the royal gate to the divine and all those things people say but rarely understand.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

a new idea

A new idea does not come from what is called 'brain', or 'thinking'. I don't want to give rise to imagination, but just to have one good practical example, think of what Bowman says in Odissey 2010, like I don't know what it is going to be, but I know something wonderful is going to happen.

(And it is not an 'idea' at all, not in the sense we usually use this word. It's probably some other centre or other division or positive emotion or higher emotional centre. And the above is an example of it - whatever it is - in operation. Like if you said, now God help me, and you really knew God is going to help.)

The problem you have before yourself in this Work is too big for logical method. Try using it and it will become defective method. Psychological, sometimes even esoteric method is required. And that is something 'you' cannot 'switch on' yourself. Like, but it will be switched on anyway.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

email excerpts - re-formed

... It's true [this system] looks like house that was never quite built, worse, like in the beginning of making plans for it. One thing I begin to understand well is that people who wrote about the system had not much time. By this I don't mean they were like busy managers and yuppies and others who have no time to look around them. But there was obviously an urge to go about their business in a very direct and efficient manner, a strong awareness that they may attain nothing at all if they use customary approaches, that their chances are small, not at all proportional to their effort.

Their seeking of special methods, of the 'schools' and so on, of the contact with the esoteric circle, their valuation of 'spedial knowledge' (which, by the bye, explains why ordinary effort can have no effect) has its ground in all that. It has nothing to do with the well-known forms of Inner Special Circle of Inner Awareness of the Golden Key and all the rest of we-are-chosen miseries of this or that kind - nothing to do with pride and vanity which they sought to overcome.

Well I agree oh that point. But allow me to say that it would be good if you could find a way to climb up, out of your simplistic dumbness a little. I'm going to consciously (yeah it's different from 'intentionally') humble myself and pretend that I'm going to debate and speculate about it all. Think, for example, how this "system" you are talking about and obviously have difficulty grasping as a whole, could be very alive and dancing and complex and joyous thing. Think how there exists, in the literature, vast, colourful range of consciously (ahem, yes, or less consciously) built Images and Picturings of the same. Imagine how, while you think that you are interested in the the system, in reality the system may be interested in you. Think what a total 'metanoia', what a schock of a conscious meeting it could mean at certain point. Don't the Inspired Authors testify at large: What is a man that You look down upon him? (Some book:some-verse)? And they they find it is too wonderful to praise and and and not-exectly-the-word, tongue-in-cheek they bring themselves to the point of uttering something. (Why should they? In a certain sense, there's no need for it. The reaction is understandable but may not be exactly what is desired. Of course, to achieve that, one has to at least anticipate it all. Just a hint.) Why? BECAUSE THERE WERE LADIES AT THE BASE. No no. Don't mix that in. That's External Considering theme we are going to expatiate on, I hope, on Some Other Suitable Occasion.

Your Bellowing Uncle

Scrampleding

Friday, March 09, 2007

More Questions And Answers

Q. I was told to find without seeking. This drives me crazy, tellya.

A. Who told you?

Q. In the group...

A. Ah, in the group.

Q. I'm sure it is a group connected with Gnosis, Holy Spirit and the Work. There are many friends, brotherhood, you know. We were told-

A. I see. Well, brotherhood and friendship is a mighty fine thing. Even a group can be a mighty fine thing, er... should be, well, theoretically of course, that is, at least I hope so. T'seems to me that only Love can save you now, friend. Depart in piece, God bless your soul and protect you from muslims, from christians, and from christian civilization. God protect you from christian technology and christian use of it. Or better, from no matter who misuses it.

I am told that congregation of sheep was celebrating Declaration of Independence from the Old Yoke of Bondage yesterday. I am told that today these sheep loads their rifles to shoot even their neighbour's dog, should such by mistake try to piss in vicinity of their private Trespassers William sign. I am told they are rapidly mutating into pigs since 1948. I am told that Worldwide Sheep Organization and other organizations are feverishly seeking their own identity. Well I can be told everything, can't I. I am told that because of the trees they do not see the forest, and I'm inclined to believe it. And I add that because of the forest they are not able to see the trees. And I add that they do not see much, in general... And I ask myself an old question: Who controls the would-be-in-controls?

Q. Jesus! What you have in mind must be a very lonely ride!

A. Saying Jesus without knowing what it means is not exactly a rare thing today... But back to your question. One finds what one looks for. Where one's heart is one's treasure is also.

Q. Thank you for this captivating interview and a friendly advice.

A. Well, thank YOU, [person's name]! I wouldn't call this an interview and, regrettably, there was not much room for a friendly advice either. (Hopefully the situation is different in your 'group'.) But without your questions event this here weren't come to pass. Will had been wouldn't passed. Argh, whatever. We sincerely hope that they will be able to deduce the meaning despite obstacles that Lord Himself, perhaps, has laid in our way to understanding. Perhaps to prevent us to come to Him? Just joking. I mean, thanks to your questions only God could again use me as the choisest of his chosen weapons, provided I, W.H., am evermore framed by this Work into a, so to speak, willing instrument to that end, in the original Nicean sense of pivotal totality, that is, totally overriding and in parts replacing dodecalogic sequence as predicted by the first 4th century and earlier fathers, in pristine beauty. Pristine beauty rulez! (You can not be TOO enthusiastic about pristine beauty, in case you thought of the possibility. You CAN be not enthusiastic enough, though. So regarding this there's no question, no doubt, no problem. For pristine beauty, I use this term in post-Nicean council sense, and this Work that we are after as if we wanted to catch it, must somehow be connected, I reckon. Must be inseparably joined, I tell myself.)

Sunday, January 21, 2007

This Work Not About Being Good

It is said that this Work is not about being good but about making connection.

This Work is about developing and building. Obviously this invites questions like What? or Building What? and other expressions from beings that have just landed on wrong site. Such beings must be referred to the sources and to other healthy and needed ground-establishing practices. For you must stand somewhere to reach deeper into this Work. Begin by building and practicing at the ground level. Continue formation by consolidating the same ground level concepts and practices. (Those looking for a hint can get it in the references section.[1]) Until you are very good at it. I am inclined to suspect, anyway, that so-called advanced topics are nothing but the same 'basic' topics understood more deeply, i.e. understood at unusual depth.

Now person doing all this will find out something: the built thing crushes to bits, scoffing both at the projest and the 'architect' of the project. On closer inspection, this is because the ground has crushed. Why is all that? Because of the second force of course. In other words, man cannot do. In other words, because personality lives under the law of accident. And so on. One could expatiate on it particulary spaciously if language of octaves were to be used. (And if one had some noteworthy command of this area, which very often is not the case, even with higly enlightened and awakened beings like, for example, W.H.). And all that, thus superficially mentioned, is not an answer, really.

So this Work IS about being good as well, no doubt about that. Only the purpose of the above saying is to tell us something else. That something called 'connection' is not more important than being good, it is rather the very ground on which to build - while 'to be good' (e.g. to be able to do something well) with nothing beyond that is insufficient. Food diagrams and hydrogen tables have more answers on this. But then a complete answer, as usual, would involve all of the system. This system is about being good at making vertico-horizontal connection, not about being no good. Its application is to bring man under another influence, to anoint man, as it were, with a coat of hermetic sealing.

Generally one has to build on 'truth', i.e. using higher hydrogens than those that make for unsuccessful courses of development. Once that is more or less clear, it does make sense to ask What type of questions. Psychological method is not just studying lies and nothing further. In this system, men (men and women, that is, not some indefinite specks of infra-emotion - which will pass on higher knowledge as successfully as a muddy brook after rain reflects sunlight in its 'crystalline', 'spotless' 'depths') study the 'truth', to begin with, and that includes studying (alas, by trying mostly, for the most of us) of the impediments, in the man himself, to begin with. That's why popular, mass fashion self-aggrandizement which commonly says "I" while thinking "you" or "them" quickly loses contact with the system. (Without this type of ill-breeding even noticing the fact.) Yes, it's not primarily about Jim or Jon, it's about valuation and aim and so on. This Work doesn't need all those 'good people' who excel in... not caring much, I guess. (And they don't need the Work, nor do they seek it. After all, what they are good at is severing, sabotaging connection. Alas, broad is the path of destruction. If, for example, the quantity of information that a person has got were important there would be thousands genuine schools overcrowded by overintellignet, overinformed students. While, in reality, even somebody like O. spent half of a lifetime in search.) Please read the following. This Work needs a person that values the idea of becoming good, and values it because, above all, they want to make connection. Reciprocally, such person will need the Work, and they will seek it, for they have seen that better, so far little known methods are necessary. Thank you. The Work, I say, not W.H. You are welcome. (By direct instruction, the path of trying can be significantly shortened, and even replaced by something much more effective, but one must have, alas, at least "ears to hear" for that.)

[1] Crumpleton, Jeremy: Why To Read The Holy Bible Is The Best Advice That Can Be Given

For those who can't get it let it suffice to say that Jeremy basically tells the reader to read the Bible seven times (as a sort of very big, lifetime project). I verified it using my usual rigorous suite of tests, and lo and behold, it is really most brilliant idea. (It must be, for otherwise I wouldn't have a need to reference poor Jeremy's book - you are allowed to say: Jeremy's poor book - on this site. I shouldn't be to cynical, though, for if I think of some distasteful commercials surfacing lately, it's clear immediately that Jeremy's book is wrong target. Also the weapon is wrong. As to the real target, brigades of fully equipped men from Fahrenheit 451 would probably do much good. Even a muslim terrorist would be a gift from heaven for such 'authors'. Hey, this is a brilliant idea. After hundreds of years, once again a brave muslim cavalrist accomplishing the feat would legitimatelly go to muslim heaven. Legitimately at least as far as I, W.H., am concerned.)

Alright, I have failed again to write a decent post [again - Ed.], but every decent writer should fail with such tasks. Because the system is very big, needless to say. Good. Failed to write about the system, it remains to express my opinion, without fail. For IMO, the system appears big because it is connected to - is a 'mask' for - something much bigger. Something that has power to freeze this Earth in a second - or melt it by excessive heat - or, as in the days of Eliah, to influence atmospheric water currents in order to affect their atmospheric upper layers accumulation and axio-radial intercontinental circular exchange and thousand of those things humans ordinarily have no idea about. Something that has power to send some 'authors' gifts after which they will wish they would have been sent muslim terrorists. Something that seemingly tolerates 'injustice' (often in fact quite fascist and murderous and genocidal 'injustice') and 'waits'. Waits like you and me when we don't know what to do. When we don't know what to do but are quite certain that we don't want to make things worse than they already are.

Friday, December 01, 2006

simple realizations

We're inclined to underestimate simple realizations, not seeing it may take many years to actually get some or even one. My example: I was 'well acquainted' with the system. I thought I was. I didn't yet realize I am not well acquainted with it at all. And then I had a simple realization.

Namely, people deeper into it all used ten or twenty words I didn't understand at all, I merely knew them. To make it worse, they used them all the time. Next, I began to realize that they used a hundred or few hundred words I knew from before but with meanings I couldn't even imagine. I made a simple calculation... twenty... that makes four hundred pairs... hundred... that makes ten thousand pairs. It is quite enough for a parallel world I couldn't penetrate, yep, quite a world that, so far, I never could had stumbled upon. (Horror-of-the-situation has different forms. But this one was healing, I guess.)

Together with it went the realization that there was no dictionary in the world to help me learn the new meanings. Because the main bulk of the new words and the new manings referred to, for me, non-existent experiences and levels of being, those that the initiated (no sarcasm intended) knew. Knew just as well as I didn't know.

What could I do? Nothing much, except push on with what I was onto already, deciding to carefully jot down every new word, idea, experience, feeling, realization, et cetera. Even more carefully then up to that moment.

Friday, October 27, 2006

figs (fig trees) in KJV

Results of searching for figs

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Online King James Version Bible. Matthew Ch 21:1-46 21:19 And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/matthew_21.html - 14k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. Matthew Ch 24:1-51 24:32 Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When his branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is nigh: 24:33 So likewise ye, ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/matthew_24.html - 14k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. Mark Ch 11:1-33 11:13 And seeing a fig tree afar off having leaves, he came, ... 11:20 And in the morning, as they passed by, they saw the fig tree dried up from the roots. ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/mark_11.html - 12k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. Mark Ch 13:1-37 13:28 Now learn a parable of the fig tree; When her branch is yet tender, and putteth forth leaves, ye know that summer is near: 13:29 So ye in like manner, ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/mark_13.html - 12k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. Luke Ch 13:1-35 13:6 He spake also this parable; A certain man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came and sought fruit thereon, and found none. ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/luke_13.html - 13k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. Luke Ch 21:1-38 21:29 And he spake to them a parable; Behold the fig tree, and all the trees; 21:30 When they now shoot forth, ye see and know of your own selves that ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/luke_21.html - 12k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. John Ch 1:1-51 1:50 Jesus answered and said unto him, Because I said unto thee, I saw thee under the fig tree, believest thou? thou shalt see greater things than these. ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/john_1.html - 13k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. James Ch 3:1-18 3:12 Can the fig tree, my brethren, bear olive berries? either a vine, figs? so can no fountain both yield salt water and fresh. ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/james_3.html - 9k - Cached - Similar pages

Online King James Version Bible. Revelation Ch 6:1-17 6:13 And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth, even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind. ...bibledatabase.net/html/kjv/revelation_6.html - 11k - Cached - Similar pages